Update...

[hidden_]

Hi, sorry I haven't updated anyone in white a while...

My mum sent me to the college councillor,it was okay at first but then I had to come up with excuses for my friends as to why I wasn't around at lunch sometimes, which I found really difficult to do after a while. I still had / have my ups and downs, which mum thought was just the college councillor not being good enough, so she wants to send me to the doctors for antidepressants and an official diagnosis. My lows have been getting so low, and more regular, it's just hard to keep on top of everything...but it's the summer holidays and I'm trying to keep myself busy, so I don't have time to feel low. I think I'm afraid of what will happen if I stay inside on my own for too long...i used to do it all the time but I don't think it would do me any good at all now.

My anxiety is still pretty bad, I'm supposed to be going out for a meal tomorrow evening for my friend's birthday, but I know I won't be up to leaving the house, let alone socialising with her other friends who I don't know. I really don't know what to say to her either,she knows I suffer from anxiety so I might just tell her the truth rather than trying to make up an excuse.

I have a month left to go, but in dreading going back to college...I'm e the excitement at the start of term usually, with new classes and the opportunity to make new friends, but I know my anxiety attacks are going to limit what I can do, and I hate that, I just want to be able to talk to people and make friendships I used to be able to, but I'm terrified.

Well that's it for now, I hope everyone is well

.

Alicia

[Hidden]

Hello Alicia

Four months ago you were needing to take examinations, how well did you do or are you still awaiting your results.

If you have taken advice from your University and you are still feeling Depressed or suffering anxiety you now need to see your GP and discuss a way forward before your new term begins, so you do not affect your learning.

With regards to your anxiety and are not wanting to leave your home too visit friends what concerns me is the fact if it is not sorted out soon you may become more insular and this could really upset your Course for the coming year.

Personally would it be helpful for you at this time if someone or friend was to call on you and escort you to this Birthday Party, this may enable you to leave the house with company and give you support with that anxiety.

For your depression we are always around to give support.

If you are suffering Anxiety yo may get further assistance from a sister site to this one Anxiety Support. Although I do some chat on their threads as well.

Do you have any idea why your depressed. When I was at College I was like you. I used to panic and feel low until the examinations had passed. Then I was ok until the time the results were due and I again hit the pits. Then depending on results and fails I would feel bad about two weeks before going back.

What some students do now of course is take a GAP YEAR, ?? Although I do not know if that would be any help for you ??

You are now where you are, your best bet is to see your GP. and take advice there. Your Mother is wise on that so listen to her.

BOB