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Holly101
Holly101

Sorry I'm becoming a major pest, posting constantly.

I don't even have anything to post , I'd just like to talk to someone.. Anyone at all..

I don't feel so good. But I'd rather talk to someone on here than the Samaritans or breathing space, they do great work, but they're not very good for having a conversation with ;)

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Hi how are you. Im here, but feeling lethargic. I was going to answer to your earlier posts as your symptons sound similar to mine so I will chat now. I have had depression for several years and Im trying to live with it but find it difficult at times. It is good to know Im not alone.

Holly101
Holly101
in reply to Golfer15

Sorry don't feel obliged to answer if you don't feel like talking.. Sometimes it helps though..

Golfer15
Golfer15
in reply to Holly101

My family are supportive but dont really understand. I have two kids, wife, job, etc but still get fed up. Is this normal.

Holly101
Holly101
in reply to Golfer15

Of course it is! You could be a millionaire, have a mansion and a swimmingpool and still get fed up and be depressed.. It's something inside you isn't it.. it's the way you feel..

So, yes I would say that's pretty normal!

Holly101
Holly101
in reply to Golfer15

Are you ok Golfer15? Thanks for answering my post, I really appreciate it, as I could tell you weren't really in the mood for talking..

So thanks! I hope I can return the favour someday..

Holly101 Xx

Hidden
Hidden

Hi Holly

Simon here.. how's life in sunny scotland.. I've only been on here a week and still building up confidence to write more, but I read your posts and I admire the way you write, I've had depression since I was a kid and I have had drug issues in the past and my heart goes out to you.. from your posts, I guess your environment is part of your problem, have you thought of moving away where there is less temptation?

Regards

Simon x

Holly101
Holly101
in reply to Hidden

Hi Simon, nice to meet you and welcome to the site :) It's already helped me a lot! I joined a few months ago but then ended up in hospital..

No, moving away's not really the answer, I've tried all that, drugs are everywhere.. It's me that's the problem and unfortunately I can't run away from myself ;)

Good evening! I'm here! I haven't been asleep all afternoon by the way! Woke up and went shopping! How are you doing x

Holly101
Holly101
in reply to Suzie40

Hi Lucy! Glad you've joined us :) I'm ok now I suppose, I just felt really horrible there and just desperately needed someone to talk to.. I really felt like doing something stupid..

Did ye buy something nice? Xx

Holly101
Holly101
in reply to Holly101

Thanks to Golfer and simon for answering too! I don't know what was wrong with me, I've been feeling kinda funny all day and then it just came to a head there.. I just didn't know what to do,do you ever get that?

I've phoned those Samaritans and breathing space a few times but all they say is 'mmm' 'ah' and 'eheem'. No use what-so-ever really,sorry, coz I know they give up their spare time and try and help people..

Hidden
Hidden

You should live where I live..Its a 10 mile round trip to get a bottle of milk!

Holly101
Holly101
in reply to Hidden

Haha, oh god I'd hate that! Where's that if you don't mind me asking? It could be nice and peaceful, but I think I'd feel pretty isolated as I'm more of a city-bird ;)

No, no, no. Nothing stupid please. Just stay and chat until it passes. I went to get some clothes for work next week. Ended up buying a hoody that's completely inappropriate for work and some printer inks! X

Holly101
Holly101
in reply to Suzie40

Awk so, as long as its comfy, you wear it to work, who cares! You could always wear something really snazzy underneath it and see their faces when you take it off ;)

That's why I posted that post, I just didn't know what to do.. It seemed forever before anyone came but it was probably only a couple of minutes lol. This place really has saved my life and my sanity a few times..

I did make a bit of a mess earlier with the selfharming, but nothing bad enough needing medical attention. I'd been doing quite well with it as well..

Have you ever heard of a website called 'The Suicide Project' ? It's supposed to be a bit like this I suppose,for support and that, but my god, if you didn't wanna do yourself in before you went on it you definitely will by the time you come off it!!

Even the design and the background of it are totally depressing and kinda macabre.. It seems full of teenage or quite young people who are just really struggling with growing up and stuff, I might be wrong with that, but I've been on it once or twice looking for help, but bloody hell, I honestly felt a 100x worse after it!

Totally off-topic there, but heh ho. Oh no, the point was, this site helps people, we help eachother, say positive things, are interested in what's going on in the other's lives etc, where-as this site is the total opposite!

Hidden
Hidden

I'm in the hills in macclesfield in Cheshire, it is quiet, but it keeps me out of trouble! 1 pub and lots of sheep, but then I've always had a soft spot for curly blond hair and blue eyes!

Holly101
Holly101
in reply to Hidden

Lol, good we've got someone with a sense of humour :) !

I suppose that's one way of looking at it, it keeps ye out of trouble.. I'd probably still be able to find or cause trouble even in a place like that!

Lol @ the suicide forum! I need to go and see ... I look at couple of alcohol support forums and I had to chuckle once at an advert for Carlsberg at the bottom of one!

As for this site, it's been a tremendous support for me since I joined. I haven't met anyone who isn't lovely. Nobody judges you and it feels like a really safe haven. The only thing I'm sad about is that a few regulars jumped ship when the site got a revamp and they haven't come back. It's hard when you get to know someone, even like this, and suddenly they vanish.

Holly101
Holly101
in reply to Suzie40

Aw that is a shame, have you not got their e-mail addresses or any way of getting in contact with them? When and why did they revamp it? I hate it when they do that, why fix something if it ain't broke?!

Aye you need to check it out, I've never came across anything so depressing in my life! And lol @ the Carlsberg ad on an alcohol support-forum, what are some of these people thinking?! Nuts!

Same here with this site, it's not even like the real world coz nobody is EVER nasty! That doesn't even happen in reality lol.

That's the last thing you need though on a forum like this, somebody being snide or nasty, it cld just tip somebody over the edge...

I joined a few month ago, or about 6weeks, I'm not sure, but then I ended up in hospital and forgot all about it. I'm so glad I found it again though!!

Holly101
Holly101
in reply to Holly101

I hope you didn't suddenly vanish on me there either ;)

I'm off to bed Lucy, thank you for being a good friend and for all your support!

N.nite, speak soon,

Lotsa luv n hugs, Holly xxx

Suzie40
Suzie40
in reply to Holly101

I'm not sure why the revamp, but it changed quite a bit. I'm more used to the site now, but it's taken a few weeks! Nos da, speak tomorrow x

Holly101
Holly101
in reply to Suzie40

Sorry, I never wished ye Nos da! I must've missed this wee post.. How are you today Lucy? Xx

Hidden
Hidden

I off to my bed now, sweet dreams Holly x

Holly101
Holly101
in reply to Hidden

N.nite Simon, thanks again for coming to my rescue ;) , and it's been a pleasure to meet you!

Hope to hear a lot more from you!

Love, Holly Xx

Yea you have got to keep your sense of humour. Laughing is good therapy. Ive just been watching Miranda on tv she makes me laugh. My advice to being low is to keep active. I go to the gym and cycle which gives me a bit of a lift but not for long. I have been trying to cut the grass for days but cant be bothered, it will only grow again. I live on the Isle Of Wight which is lovely this time of year but really depressing in the winter. We have to keep each others spirits up. Dont let this depression beat us. Take it one day at a time.

Holly101
Holly101
in reply to Golfer15

You're totally right about the keeping active, you know it helps, and you know it's the only way you're gonna feel better, but sometimes (well me personally a lot of the time) still choose the easy way out and curl up in my bed or lock myself in the house for days, knowing fine well it'll only make matters worse.. Mad, how the human brain works..

Laughter's defo the best medicine though, does it not release serotonin as well? It doesn't happen a lot, but when it does, and I get one of those fits of the giggles, just a pure belly-laugh, I love it, and afterwards you feel so much better, just like after a good greet (sorry that's a Scottish word, a good cry) I suppose... It's a total release isn't it..

I can see the Isle of Wight being lovely in the summer, but I don't think I'd fancy it in the winter either,

I suppose it could get quite isolating as well as depressing..

Thanks again for tonight Golfer, and keep cutting that grass, you could say the same about your hair. it'll just grow again, but it doesn't stop ye from going for a haircut does it ;)

G.nite Golfer,hope you sleep well and have a good day tomorrow!

Love,Holly xx

Hidden
Hidden

Holly sweetie you could never be a pest even if you tried :) Keep posting as often as you want. Hope you are feeling a bit better now. Hugs

Bev x

Holly101
Holly101
in reply to Hidden

Aw thank you Bev :) Believe me, I can be a pest if I really want to lol !

I definitely feel a lot better now, thanks everybody for your support and kind words, I really am touched by the way this site works, people who don't even know you, still answering a post coz they see someone in despair, it really works doesn't it..

This could've had a very different ending if it wasn't for this forum, so I really can't thank every single one of yous enough!

I'll give yez all peace now and go to my bed myself, feeling a whole lot better and still alive and kickin ;)

G.nite everybody, hope tomorrow's gonna be a good one for all of us!

Lotsa Love, hugs and thanks, Holly Xxx

Photogeek
Photogeek
in reply to Holly101

Holly sleep well.

Holly101
Holly101
in reply to Photogeek

Thanks huni, I did eventually.. How are you today?

I'm feeling slightly better, mostly thanks to everybody last night!!

Spk soon, luv Holly Xxx

Good to meet you last night Holly. Im glad I offered support along with the others who replied to you. Sorry I left you without saying goodnight. I was so tired but I didnt sleep that well. I hope you feel ok this morning. Try and get out for a walk. Im off to the gym. Have a good day. Love David x

Holly101
Holly101
in reply to Golfer15

Hi David, thanks again for your support last night, and don't worry about not saying goodnight, I won't hold it against you ;)

I really admire how you motivate yourself like that, that must take a lot of discipline, coz I presume half the time you really can't be bothered but you just force yourself..

And I know your right and it does make you feel better, so it's worth it, you must reap the benefits of that discipline!

Hope you're having a good day, I'm a lot better than yesterday, mostly thanks to all your support!

I really can't thank yous enough :)

Love, Holly Xxx

Sorry I wasn't around for you but I live in NZ so when you are awake I am asleep. But you look as though you had lots of lovely people helping you and supporting you. Hope that today is good for you. Take care. xx This site is so good and has been very helpful to me so keep blogging and you will feel the benefit I am sure. No-one is ever too much trouble on here. xx

Holly101
Holly101
in reply to Jeffju

Don't be sorry for being asleep ;) And you're right, I was amazed how many people took the trouble to reply, even at that time of night when everybody must've been nackered and the last thing you need is some depressive nutter shouting for help ;)

But it is an amazing site, and it works! I feel a good bit better today and I want to thank everybody once again for their help, kind words and support!

Lots of love, Holly Xx

Now that I make myself go to bed - and sleep - I remember (having) dreams. An intriguing and near-forgotten side of living. G.

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