Problems that need to be sorted

[Davidbyrne32]

For the past 4 years or so now I’ve been battling Borderline Personality Disorder , a battle that seems to be a losing one on my belhalf. I take 225mg venlaflaxine (antidepressant) , 400mg pregabalin (anxiety medication) and 10mg propranolol (anxiety medication). Since starting this medication I’ve slowly gained weight over the years , I’m 23 stone and I use to be. 15 stone ! 15 stones isn’t the slimmest , but it certainly felt healthier than what I currently am now. I feel the medication increases my appetite which is well known side effect to these medications. However I try not to let that be an excuse to stop trying to be healthy and be of a healthy weight. I was a gym member until recently , but had to cancel my membership as I broke my ankle at the beginning of September and I’m still in recovery. It was a serious injury that required an operation where I now have a big plate with 10 screws in total in my ankle. I am engaged so it’s not been easy on my fiancé who works full time , so to make it easier I’ve had to go stay at my parents and my fiancé too. We’re both staying at my parents because we currently live with my fiancé’s mother and she can’t even look after herself so too expect her to be able to deal with this would be hilarious. However since being at my parents we’ve decided not to go back to staying with her mother anymore as the situation is extremely stressful and unhealthy. I was always stressed out and angry because her mother is so lazy and does nothing to help around the house , there would be time when she’d leave dirty knickers lying around the bathroom floor. Not something anyone wants to see , especially after eating breakfast. The tricky part is we pay the mortgage , electric/water bills and internet bills. She pays the council tax and tv license, so I’d say she’s got it pretty easy. We’re selling the house after Christmas but staying at my parents I’m worried as her mother has loads of different men around and if they knick stuff , what could we do ? Also I don’t want to live at my parents as everyone has mental health issues so it can be just as stressful , we feel like we can’t win in any given situation. I also hate my job which before I broke my ankle I was extremely depressed feeling suicidal over it , I know that’s dumb but that’s how I feel. I keep getting extremely low moods thinking how we’re going to change anything but I’m at a point where I can’t see a way out...what can I do ?

[shoib]

Hey Davidbyrne32,

Your situation is very complicated and you are on the edge. I don't think the problems you have can be answered on an online forum. You should visit a doctor and stay motivated. Good times are just around the corner, just hang on.

If you don't feel like visiting a doctor, you should consult an online doctor instead of a forum. There are many websites which offer this service. You can visit this just in case: justdoc.com/content/online-...