This is a fairly trivial blog post I guess in light of all the more serious ones, but it's kind of important to me...
Basically, I'm at uni and I've recently been invited to a party by someone who I use to go to school with. I really want to go because I haven't been out all year and I would like to make some new friends because I lost quite a few when I took a year out and part of me doesn't want to completely change my lifestyle because of lupus. Symptom wise I am feeling good, no aches or pains, so I think I could go, but I am worried.
The problem is I don't really have anyone to go with, can I go to a party by myself? I can only think of one other friend who , maybe, might want to come, but I'm not sure. I will know the host (she's really nice), whose birthday it is but obviously she'll be busy as its her birthday! Also they will be playing drinking games, and I don't really drink anymore, I usually have a glass of white wine and then drink water for the rest of the evening if I am in a drinking situation. I'm scared that people (who do not know that I have lupus) will peer pressure me or the party won't be fun because everyone will be drunk. Then the plan is to go to a club after and I'm worried I'll be tired/ bored.
As I'm writing this, I can see how nervous I am about this and I want to stay at home because I am scared of all of this. But at the same time, I don't want lupus to make me scared from going to the occasional party that I am seldomly invited to! I've been trying to make more friends this year but have found it quite hard because I've lost of bit of self- confidence. I used to be able to make friends and meet people really easily, but since being diagnosed and especially when l was losing hair, I was incredibly self conscious and always made an excuse not to go out and socialise and now even though my hair is back I am still wary of socialising.
Has anyone got any advice for me?