Well fellow lupies, 😜
I've had my first appt with a psych today, bar neuropsych 😆, and have got it done privately. Costly, but if it's something I need then it's priceless to me.
Well, you may ask why now? Why counselling? Well lupus can take your sense of identity and not only that but those who knew you or family that once cared for you can really make your sense of self even worse if they don't understand, or can't emphasise with what youre going through.
This was the case with my own, sadly, it was the straw that broke the camel's back, that they didnt want anything more to do with me, other than to berate or get physical with me. But neither could they leave me be to live peacefully out with their presence. Something that I have been a struggling for over eleven years. Guilt, shame, lack of self worth, the never ending agony of a condition most won't treat etc.
Secondly, it is to seek joy once again. That is something not lost only hidden, as I find it is my spirit, which comes from the Lord. This can be shrowded by being tired down by the problems and the daily pain, fatigue, agony, and senseless lack of help from lupus, and by a myriad of other stressors we have to manage on top.
So first session down, and it's a lot to open the door on, but I do recommend it to fellow lupies that need to make sense, explore their own thoughts and feelings and get to a strong mental standpoint.
The only way is up x bless ya 💖💖💖