I had an appointment with my gp about my ankle and knees which get swollen when i walk. I also showed him the lumps on all my joints. He said that it is inflammation of the soft tissues. My white blood count is really low as a result my 2nd retoximab infusion was canceled. I asked my gp what i should do hoping he will prescribe some immunity boasters. No, he said i should rest and not push myself, eat healthy foods. I am too exhausted to eat. I get tired in the middle of a meal. I promised to take my son swimming this half term but i couldnt. Tuesday, wensday and thursday i was in and out of manchester royal infirmary. My son had to accompany me on two occassions. I had to use a taxi bcos i am too tired to go from bus to train. I am so restless and unwell, i have a discomforting and streachy feeling in my arm. I try to eat healthy, i ve a fruit smoothy in d morning, beans or unripe plantain with spinach for lunch and for supper fruits and letuse. I need a break from being unwell. My 4yr old encourages me to walk without d aid of my stick. He even takes d stick from me saying ' u can do it mummy'. I am completly unable to care 4 myself. My mum take care of me and she had to give up work to takecare of me and my son. Am sorry if u cant understand dis post it is so disoriented and that is my present state of mind (disoriented).