Feeling alone

[Tamka39]

I’ve been meditating read my Bible reading the big book reading books about Alcohol reading books on Anxiety ooking up everything on YouTube do online groups talking to different people on different apps and Still I feel so stuck. I really don’t know how long I can continue to struggle like this my mom and family is living they doing everything I wish I could do and sitting in the car because am afraid to go into the store because I don’t want to embarrass my mom by panicking am so depressed and anxious right now at this moment anxiety makes me hate myself makes me what to get up

[Dorsey]

Well so sorry you feel that way but your not alone. My life has been on hold for two years from anxiety. Stops me from just going out and enjoying myself as i never feel well. Don't know what the answer is for us all.

[Tamka39 in reply to Dorsey]

Am on the same boat and I use to exercise eat healthy go to the casino to Detroit Michigan shopping walking u name it now my only safe place is my house and I don’t go to far from home because am always afraid something gong to happen or am going to have a panic attack anxiety has ruined my life and I be so exhausted

[Dorsey in reply to Tamka39]

Yes feel the same but even when home can't find the energy to do all the things i want. It sucks i have been able to go out more but still dont feel good even when out. Do you have any strange symptoms?

[Tamka39 in reply to Dorsey]

I don’t do much at home too just lay down on my couch watching tv with my phone in my hand I experience derealization and depersonalization it feels like am floating or everything is moving while am walking do u experience any strange symptoms?

[Dorsey in reply to Tamka39]

Yes everyday. Strange legs short of nreath at times feel like somethinv stuck in stomache i try so hard but they never go away beating in stomache at my wits end.

[Tamka39 in reply to Dorsey]

Have u told your doctor

[Dorsey in reply to Tamka39]

Yes been to hosp never any answers

[Tamka39 in reply to Dorsey]

Anxiety can makes us feels a lot of things because we’re always on alert about everything is scary

[Dorsey in reply to Tamka39]

Certainly dors always another symptom pops up domewhere elsr.

[Tamka39 in reply to Dorsey]

I feel so hopeless right now probably need to call the hotline

[Dorsey in reply to Tamka39]

Have you seen a councillor

[Tamka39 in reply to Dorsey]

I have my first appointment with a therapist on October 16th

[Tamka39 in reply to Dorsey]

Just got off the helpline with someone it wasn’t any good help

[Dorsey in reply to Tamka39]

Thats not good what did they tell you.

[writingforjoy]

I'm so sorry. Your struggle is real and my prayer is you can have confidence without fear of being an embarrassment. If it happens it happens. So many people struggle and you trying to push even if you may have an attack is brave and may be the start to your healing. My friend gave me a word the other day and it has been SO freeing for me.

In fear, do it anyway. It was like a light bulb clicked in my head. I am not going to live my best life if I sit back and hide and don't live it. Yes it was scary, yes my heart goes crazy, but then....life happens and I am so blessed. You have taken great actions, keep it up. We didn't get to where we are overnight so we will take time to overcome, but we WILL overcome!!!

I have some other resources but it sounds like for now, you are filling yourself up with some good ones. Please let me know if you want more. I am praying for your great strength and peace in your heart!

Best wishes ~

[Tamka39 in reply to writingforjoy]

Thank u I want more

[Tamka39 in reply to writingforjoy]

Yesterday was ok until I had a dizzy spell / lightheaded and had to lay in bed all day I was so scared to get out of bed or move because I didn't want it to happen again. I swear once I say am doing better something always pop up now today I feel off balance going to the doctor to get checked to see if I have vertigo because I had ear problems since a kid I feel struck today very unhappy

[writingforjoy in reply to Tamka39]

Oh goodness, I understand dizziness! It is hard when you don't want to feel that way and it is easier to stay in bed just in case. But I miss out on so much when I do that. I have been dizzy for almost a year now. Finally found it relates to my eye tracking movement. So don't give up if you aren't getting answers from one doc to the next.

Anxiety itself can be a source of dizziness as well.

Depression and anxiety are often linked so here is some resources on those lines: bit.ly/2hwXnqH

[Tamka39 in reply to writingforjoy]

A year of dizzy sorry to hear that do u take medication

[Tamka39 in reply to Tamka39]

Do u have vertigo?

[writingforjoy in reply to Tamka39]

I have vertigo due to my eyes. No medication available, I start eye therapy in November.

[Tamka39 in reply to writingforjoy]

I think I have vertigo and am scared I go back to the eye nose throat doctor November 12th did the eye doctor tell u that eye therapy will help u am just tried of struggling I just want to be free from mental illness

[writingforjoy in reply to Tamka39]

I am hoping it will help but not sure yet. I have heard amazing things about her though. Anything is worth a try to feel better in my opinion.

I understand the struggle to go, but you can't get better with no trying and that is not what your heart wants. Your heart wants to be well and fully living again. I am believing that for you.

The struggle is real and I don't discredit that, but it is okay to believe for success and wholeness.

[Tamka39 in reply to writingforjoy]

Thank you 🙏🏾