I moved to the UK from New Zealand a few months ago, and at first everything was great. I went sightseeing in London, spent three weeks in Europe and generally just kept myself busy experiencing new things. I decided to get a part-time job as I don't have much money and found one within a week - I was over the moon and loving life. The only problem was that I didn't have a National Insurance number, so filled out the form and sent it off. It has now been three weeks with no number, I phoned them today and apparantly it will be another four to six weeks before I can receive it. My new boss is not keen for me to work without a number, and I'm terrified that he's going to withdraw his offer, especially as he has not yet given me any written confirmation.
Since this whole process with the National Insurance number began, I have been very anxious and stresssed about it every day. I've been getting really homesick and sometimes have to restrain myself from jumping onto the Internet and booking flights home. I'm worried about spending money as I am uncertain about my new job and so feel like I can't really do anything. I spend most days at home and rarely go out. I feel like my whole life is on hold until I start working.
I cry every day and feel so hopeless. It sounds so silly because so many other people have real problems, but I have always worked and depended on having a regular income. I miss my friends back home all the time too. A lot of the time I wish I had never moved here! I'm 23 and had lived at home until I moved to the UK so I am also struggling to adjust without my family. I feel very isolated and don't know how to meet people. I had just assumed I would make friends through work, and I also had plans to join the gym and maybe take up yoga classes but I don't want to spend money on these things just yet in case I get the job offer taken away.
Like I said, I do feel silly for feeling this way when there are people out there with real problems. My boyfriend tries to be kind and patient with me but he has said that I'm making a massive deal out of it. It's alright for him, he has a lot of money saved up and doesn't need to work for ages! I know that he would be happy to lend me money but I really enjoy making my own money, I hate relying on other people. Now I find myself snapping at him a lot and I feel so bad about it.
So I guess my question is, am I depressed or is it just this situation getting me down? I do feel like when I start working everything will be okay again, but I just don't know when that will happen and I can't carry on feeling like this.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated, thanks for reading!