I think I may be developing an eating disorder. I know this might sound silly, but here's why:
I'm 5ft 4, and I weigh just under 10st at 17 years old but I'm convinced I need to lose weight and have just started with the calorie counting and gym. I often find it hard to eat a normal portion of food, as I'm often over-faced and intimidated by the amount. I feel like if I eat all my food, I will be judged by someone. I try and avoid eating in front of huge crowds of people because, again, I feel like I'm being judged. I always try and avoid 'bad' foods such as sugar and dairy, and feel awful if I eat a lot. I will often go for maybe a week eating one meal a day, if the previous week I ate loads one day. If someone brings up weight in a conversation, I instantly feel uncomfortable and won't eat for the rest of that day (I don't know why). I've even got to the point where if I have to eat a big meal, I will think about (and sometimes make myself) throw up.
My family used to tell me I was really skinny (because I was underweight because I used to get stressed and lost loads) but now I'm getting the "You look fat in that" comments from my parents. Is this because I actually need to lose weight? Am I actually fat?
Is this worth talking to someone about? Am I worrying about nothing?
[Sorry its a long post]