So as you can tell from the title, I'm depressed. Everything seems both boring and pointless, to the point where I honestly can't care if I manage to get through life or not. I can't find anything to interest me long enough to be counted as a hobby, so I've spent most of my time being bored. Hell, the only thing I take my time to do is just an escape from reality. I've contemplated suicide, but couldn't go through with it because it would leave my family sad. I'm just depressed, not emotionless. For god's sake, I haven't even graduated from high school yet, I shouldn't have to be dealing with this kind of stuff. I should be living my care free high school life with my friends and family, enjoying the little things and working towards my dream job! Instead I have no dreams and can only see myself dying in a gutter alone, cold, and hungry, and I don't even care. What am I supposed to do about this? I can't tell my family, as they'll put me in counseling, and that won't help. Maybe I'll find something to interest me enough that I'll try a bit.