I've never written on a forum before so I hope it makes sense and not jumbled up, like it currently is in my head.
I feel that people don't like me, that I'm a nuisance and that I'm not good enough or clever enough. I feel that I say the wrong thing and people look at me like I'm stupid and shouldn't have said that.
My parents aren't interested in me, I spoke to them yesterday and all they wanted to do was talk about my brother and weren't interested in me (they never have really) when I mentioned it to my other half, he just said they've always been like that so why did I expect them to be different this time. The problem is I forget when I don't speak to them and and when I do speak to them I feel crap afterwards and feel that I've done something wrong. My mum once said to me when I was little that if they'd had my brother first they wouldn't have had me.
I think my husband is getting annoyed with me for moaning about how I'm feeling and tells me not to be stupid and all I want to do is go into a room and cry/scream but for some reason I can't cry it won't come out.