Am I even using this right?

Firstly, I am very sorry if I've messed up, I think I'm in the right section...

I'm 16 years old and my doctor says it "seems like [I've] got depression". I've felt hollow for about five months now - Does that make sense? I'm not necessarily always sad, though I am often. I'm just usually hollow. It's like I can't feel anything but frustration about not feeling anything.

I'm stressed out with school, really stressed. Within the last few months, I've felt like my results have been going down. Sometimes I don't remember being in the lesson. I remember walking in and when I check my book, I've done the work. But I don't remember BEING there.

It's not just the lessons, it's seeing my friends. Being around them just makes me feel worse. I still hang around with them because I know cutting out interacting with friends would make things worse in the long run.

My dad (My parents found out a fortnight ago because my sister told) says that another reason I'm stressed is because I'm worried about my friends and that's true. All of their problems, I do everything I can to help. But, when the situation is reversed, I don't think I can count on them.

My friend, "Jeremy", had depression before (he's okay now) I kept my phone beside me 24/7 so that he could call me when he woke up at 3 a.m. every night and I let him cry in my kitchen and comforted him... But, since he git better and I got worse, he's barely spoken to me other than when we walk to school and when I tried talking to him when I was upset, he started having a go at me and somehow I was the one who apologised!

I don't know what to do. What should I do?

5 Replies

  • Hi There,

    With regards to talking to friends. if they treat you like this particularly the one you helped, Jez, then you can either leave it at that and let it be or have a chat with him and give him a perspective that you were there when he needed someone.

    Keep up with being around friends as you don't want to completely isolate yourself as this could potentially make your depression worse.

    Your school is making you stressed and that cycle of stress you feel is something that needs to be broken otherwise it can prolong and worsen your depression. So if you want to, lets talk about school?

  • Thank you sooooo much @loggerslot, it means the world that someone not only took the time to read what I had to say, but also replied. So thanks again!!

    P.s yes I'm in school (I'm 14)

  • Also when you say you worry about all your friends problems, put a limit on it for the sake of your own sanity. everyone has to learn their own way through problems in life and so do you, so don't needlessly worry about their issues. if they want to talk then they know you're there.

    Now that your parents know i guess they can help by asking you how you're doing and if you someone to talk to then they can help with that.

    Also, if your school does after school activities, sewing, wood work, horticulture, sports, netball league, rounders league, etc, then have a look and see what takes your fancy. it will help break your day up and engage your mind into other things other than friends and school and cut down on that stress you feel by keeping your mind occupied.

  • I feel the exact same way, its ironic because I'm also a girl who's 16. I wrote a post on here too, to try to search for answers. Hope you get yours - just wanted to let you know that you're not alone and there are people who feel the same things as you....I'm just lost

  • depression and anxiety doesn't discriminate I'm a 22 year old guy and reading the above stories really hit home for me that although i feel so empty and unwanted I'm not alone I think the worst thing to do with depression is suffer in silence although unfortunately this is usually the case I should know I can only do this though a keyboard i often feel to give up and have little hope for the future

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