I'm 12 , I self-harm every night and have depression I have been bullied in school and find i hard to get along with anyone especially girls they think im wierd and ugly i always feel left out unwanted and demolished i have nothing to look forward to all i think about is the pain i want to feel . i have 54 cuts on my left hand wrist and 86 cuts on my right upper thigh . i am struggling in school as i am constantly distracted . i also have medical problems which lowers my self esteem/confidence alot . i am thinking of refering myself to the psychiatric ward because , please help me .