I am always bored.

[Johnson12345]

Everything I do just seems really boring now. I cannot watch TV I liked to watch, like "Doctor Who", " South Park", the news, the "Science Channel", or the " History Channel". I also cannot listen to music, which is what I would frequently do. I had a lot of manic energy, and I needed a fast-paced and busy city life, as well as riding motorcycles and constantly needing something new and different, and to explore. I also cannot read, work out, hike, or just walk around. I cannot find passion and inspiration from anything anymore. Before, I would get depressed frequentlyz, but I realize now that I kind of liked it. It was who I was and who I should be. I also had no friends(I still don't, but it is not that I do not like people. I guess cannot stand all the fake and annoying people, as well as a lot of mainstream stuff. I would not mind a couple of friends, although I do like to be alone sometimes to think. Also, another reason is that I am very secretive, and I will not usually show feelings or tell my thoughts, as I prefer not to bore people with my life and because I like it, although it would probably be slightly less so to my friends, if I had some. I guess I am kind of an introverted person.) However, I am no longer depressed or like dark stuff, lije the writings of Edgar Allen Poe.Anyway, I am never depressed, happy,mad, etc.Anyway, I have been dragging this on for a long time, so in conclusion, everything I do just seems really boring now. I think it is me not drinking "Mountain Dew" anymore, or my mind playing tricks on me, and maybe a combination. My bipolar disorder might also contribute, but I do not think so.

[Mobman1999]

Gosh, this was like reading my own situation here, to the very word.

I wholeheartedly sympathize and understand. Although I can't really offer any advice, on account of me being in the same boat, It might comfort you to know that there are other people out there that feel like you do. I know I felt better knowing this upon reading your comment.

Although I really enjoy the works of Edgar Allen Poe, bordering on obsession. I had to cut back, despite the great author he is you must surely agree that he's a bit of a downer. I pride myself in knowing "The Raven" off by heart, word for word.

I share your interests in shows too, In addition to those I rather like keeping up with current affairs politically and my passion for it slowly turned grey, it was like I was becoming a member of the house of lords! I then found the "Private eye" magazine which just mocks the political outlook while retaining what's going on. See if you can't find an alternative in your interests.

I must admit my passion for Doctor who has turned sour, It is still a part of my weekly ritual to watch it and it's beginning to grow on me again, not that the recent content has helped! Two part episodes are bloody infuriating and as fun as self references are the target demographic don't understand them and even myself who has seen every episode from William Hartnell don't appreciate the extent they're appearing.

I barely listen to music, most of my musical taste has depressing undertones, e.g 'Don't fear the reaper' by blue oyster cult and to a lesser degree 'Fire flies' by Owl city and 'I see fire' by Ed Sheeran.

I can mainly suggest that you do the things you once liked, don't let apathy and lethargy ensue, that's rather hypocritical of me as I sit here at home too fatigued to go to school.

I'm one of those people, you might feel the same, who bottle up emotion and suppress it. I never listened when it was ill advised in former Junior schools to do that but I can now say from experience that although It feels so much better to not have to deal with it all it does just sit there and claw away at you, I'm feeling the repercussions of this now, it's all catching up in an exacerbated form.

I feel friends are the best way forward, I've always found friends hard but luckily I do have one. Friends who share the common trait of not being able to make friends, it's that kind of deal. Just if you are establishing new friendships, even ones out of emotional necessity, be cautious to not use them as an emotional dumpster. Suppression is equally as bad as outpouring on someone, it's not fair so try to find moderation. Pen pals are great, I have found them hugely effective.

I also have a lot of interests like 'Magic: the gathering' which nobody I know shares and that makes me hellishly lonely. I've found recently that receiving awards is more a punishment now, what with nobody to share my excitement with or anybody to tell. It makes me want to not try, pen pals help to some degree but still they're not tangible.

I wonder if you've just started six form and are having issues with the transitions and steps up not particularly in the work but more so emotionally, sitting their stone faced looking unscathed but hallowed inside with knowing that you have to start again, making new friends or just that you feel trapped, still in the same old school, same old things for another two years. Bullied and pressured by your school, unwilling or unable to speak up. It's only a presumption but if it's the case then I might be able to help there.

I may not have been a lot of help but as I progress in my situation I can offer my advice that can hopefully help in yours as I've noticed some similarities.

I'm very new to this site, in fact yours is one of the first comments I read but I'll try to follow you and see your reply and how you're doing. How I can help and if you can offer anything likewise.

Kindest regards,

-Ashley

P.S

...Yes!, It's a unisex name, I'm in fact a boy.

(Sorry for having to stress that but on too many occasions have people presumed I'm female from my name and I awkwardly have to correct them, sometimes I spare the embarrassment and don't correct them through guilt of not making it clear early and prior to any estranged messages. It might seem like an over reaction but clarity is essential with this name, my apologies.)

[Johnson12345 in reply to Mobman1999]

Thank you very much for the reply. Just like you said, it was very comforting to know people have the same problem. I can agree with nearly everything you wrote. It does seem that it may be that I feel trapped. I also understand how you can be hypocritical. Unfortunately, I cannot give you any advice you are probably unaware of, but as for you not going to school, I think you should try it and see what happens.Sometimes, just pushing yourself is better, and you will at least know you tried.Anyway, I am sorry if the reply seems too generic, but I could not think of anyway good enough to reply back. Anyway, I will make sure to follow your advice, and if you ever need any yourself, I am always there.

Best Regards

-John

Also, you do not have to apologize for the clarification of your name. It is fine.

[Mobman1999 in reply to Johnson12345]

Well, I'm at school now as it happens when I saw your reply and it's actually a lot better than sitting around at home, it's just the initial energy to get myself out the door in the morning.

One reason I wasn't happy is that I was taking subjects with people I'm not comfortable around and learning content I'm not or ever was interested in and with being so long into the term they wouldn't let me change for another two years!

I've managed to change those subjects now and am working my way back up to a level of happiness.

Me and my form tutor play Magic: the gathering on Tuesday afternoons and this week I'd completely forgotten how to play the card game and was noticeably shaking, I kept myself together until I left the room.

That was me acting on the advice of doing what you once liked even if your interest fades and as bad as that was for me Tuesday I'll be going again next week.

So I'm acting on my own advice and finding it to work, if you try it too then I wish the same results.

Good luck, John.

Keep me updated!

[Johnson12345 in reply to Mobman1999]

It is great that the advice is working and you were able to find solutions to the problem.Hopefully, it will continue. I have been very busy the past few days, so I have not been able to try your advice. However, now that I have gotten it out of the way, I am ready to try.

I wish you the best of luck.

-John

[Mobman1999 in reply to Johnson12345]

Hey, best of luck to you too.

Let me know how you find it and throw anything back that you found useful.

-Ash

[Wooda]

I often feel the same way. BoreDom is sign of depression. As fellow introvert it's hard to open up to others but trust them. Most people are more good.