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I am affected too.

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Wow, read so many post here and lots sound like myself. Except one thing, I don't have any conditions (not sure if that would be the correct word or not)

I am a 45 year old male now but my problems started about 15 years ago. I am so tired and bored with life now, I don't have the energy to do anything even though I want to. Sometimes there is something fun to do but just don't feel like it. I have done so many things in life and feel I have done it all, even did skydiving last year. Sadly I did not like the free fall feeling in my stomach so I will not be doing it again. I have traveled around the world, I have worked in many jobs and kind of a jack of all trades. I can do anything. but do have a hard time staying at a job, I have worked for at least 40 different companies. I have had many relationships but get out of them when I get bored, I have had over 60 relationships. Sadly I have left many good women. I have had many (cars, over 28), (boats, over 15), (motorcycles, over 12) too, but get rid of them when I am tired of them, they are always used and I fix them up, so they are cheap. I have moved around a lot too, all over the USA, about 32 residences so far.

I have been to many doctors, tried many drugs for many different things and nothing works. I feel no better and no worse. Here is the kicker, I am very healthy, hardly ever get sick. My blood work and all test like MRI, EEG and hundreds others all come back normal. My doctors are at the point that they dont even know what to test for. I have been to about 7 different doctors around the states and seen them for a year or two and they all come back with no answers. I am height and weight correct for my size. I eat descent. I have a degree in engineering and can make good money (about $80k per year), what I do is interesting but sadly I am kind of bored with it. I would say I am decent looking too, but a little bit on the shy side, but by no means quiet once I know you. I save my money and have the things I want, not rich, but good simple stuff. I don't really have any worries in life. I am a nice guy and enjoy helping people, even did a medical mission in Asia. I got to do this because one of my jobs was a pharmacy technician. I am just bored and tired of everything.

I had a good childhood, I had good friends, I had lots of fun doing outdoor stuff and traveling and building things. I miss doing all this but everyone is older and has their own lives now. I would say I really liked my age 13 to 26 years of my life, did so many things and had so much fun. My parents are still together and I get along great with them. I have never been abused or abused anyone. I have never been in any troubles with the law, except some speeding tickets for my fast motorcycles and cars. lol I do not take any medications on a regular basis and never have except short times for many different drugs for many different things, I have never done drugs or smoked.

I kind of through this all out there, I would like answers, but have given up. but also just to put this out there for others.

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you need a rest

if you are muslim or not i suggest you to read quran must

it gives you peace in your life and give you your answer

Stay blessed

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