I'm feeling very confused about whether or not I am suffering from depression. I am 23, female and work with children in a stressful environment (although there are some fun days!).
I am constantly tired, very often feel down about my job, often feel like I'm not doing enough, I've had some thoughts of suicide - although I would never ever act on these. Away from work I feel down quite often, my friends and colleagues have commented on it often and the general comment is that I should just 'cheer up' and 'stop being so miserable'. I often spend my free time at work shut away in my work area because I don't want to force being happy around people when I'm not.
I'm scared to register with a doctor and get a proper test as a lot of the children I work with live in the same area as me and I don't want to see them.
All in all, I am nearly 24 and have felt this way since 6th form. I always thought I would be happier the more I achieved, degree and a good job etc but I'm much the same.