I'm usually on here offering a bit of advice and support to other people but it's me who is needing it now.
The past while I have been feeling really low,which does happen with me even on medication,but it's getting worse. I know all the advice etc but sometimes there is no rhyme or reason to this depressed feeling...and why do I blame myself for everything when I know it's not me!
My Mum is ill, my husband has been working away a lot and home at weekends, thats stopped now but he mostly works 6 or 7 days a week when home. I'm home looking after 4 'kids' ranging from 8-18 and everything that entails! Two of them play football so I have the training run 4 nights a week and games every saturday to get too. I feel i've been swallowed up and this crazy hamster wheel will NEVER stop.
That is tip of the iceberg! My love is art and ive just done a calligraphy course which I loved and am doing a more advanced one soon...BUT...my husband always makes me feel like I should go and get full time work instead of ' messing' about with that kind of stuff.
I have gone back to work on several occasions, trying to balance it with home and family commitments was too much and I ended up at my GP in floods of tears and close to a breakdown.
I have spoken to my husband and tried to get him to understand what it's like and that I need to have a proper talk....he says hes working but has taken a day off this monday to talk....nice of him to book me in Eh? lets hope I feel like opening up in my alloted time slot!!
I walk around feeling worthless,ugly and guilty for being a stay at home mum and can't shake this blackness off just now.
Any thoughts welcome ' fellow sufferers.'