Never been diagnosed, but I've been suffering from depression/anxiety for around a year and a half. It has severely impacted my academics and my social life. I recently finally got up the courage to try to get help (I always thought I'd be ridiculed for it "not being bad enough" but the depression became unbearable to live with) but because I drink too heavily I was rejected from counselling. They recommended alcohol treatment services, but I'm not entirely comfortable with using them as I don't feel my drinking is really at that level yet (I usually drink at least a bottle of wine every night, maybe more depending on how bad I've felt that day). I have been self medicating for a long time with alcohol and marijuana; they're the reason I never sought help before. I can't see a way to stop drinking without my depression getting better first.