Lost going round and round and down. I have had manic depression since about age 14 am 51 now and diagnosed about 15 years ago, I give up. All through this time Ive been medicated sectioned and endured ECT against my wishes been restrained chemically
coshed humiliated accused of attention seeking and told it was all down to my disordered personality. , when I was
diagnosed and prescribed lithium amongst other things, I did eventually feel alot more settled and although not
100% , 100% better than I ever did, After a few years and gaining several stone In weight I had my medication
changed and now its gone all wrong Ive stopped taking my pills and im not sure I can keep on keeping on.
Taking my dog for 3am walks to beach is my only sanctuary. what can I do, medicated or unmedicated madness is eating away at my will to be bothered anymore