I am not sure who I need to speak to (Employer EAP scheme, GP or someone else) but I am really struggling to cope with my emotions. I have horrible mood swings generally aimed at my Wife and feel like I need to breakdown and let all my emotions pour our (but I don't want to appear weak!). My Wife things I may benefit from speaking to someone (maybe a grievance counselor).
The reason why I am now reaching out for advice or support is that I have seen the light and understand that my failings are having a detrimental effect on my marriage, as last night I found out that my wife see's our relationship as in between happy and strained, whilst I see if as happy. The analogy I came up with was:
"it's like me walking along and smashing car windows (ie: being snappy with my Wife), I feel happy as I have relived my stress, but have left people getting upset and having to fix the broken window."
My mum passed away about 2 years ago, and I guess that's where everything started (but that seems like an easy answer).
I feel like I am on a tightrope and at any minute I will fall of it, but then sometimes I feel like I want to be unhappy, so I can have an excuse to grumpy.
I really hope someone can at least point me in the right direction, or give me some advice.