I feel lost, lonely, tired and afraid. I am spiralling in to a black hole again. This is the , lowest I have ever been and I am falling faster than I can count. I am here on my own and my head is spinning trying to ward off the deamons who make me want to go and do it!!! My strength is slowly but deffo getting so tired of all the thoughrs in my head. I have been to the doctors and they have added another antidepressant to my full stack that im taking already. My mind is in a very dark place and there is no light that I can see. Bit by bit I am loosing my grip, falling down and down so fast. I am not sure what or where I will hit but im afraid.. I am so scared of doing something and 1 of my kids finding me. I feel like a heavy burden on them and for myself also I just want to get out of here once and for all. God forgive me for doing this, its the easy way out but the black hole is drowning me and I can't fight it anymore..