I go through really emotional bouts maybe only from 20mins to a few hours and they are usually triggered by something silly that leads me to feel like I cant cope with life anymore (like breaking a glass). When I feel like this I always think about killing myself and I think about ways I can do it but i don't think I will ever do anything. I can go a month or 2 between bouts - sometimes longer, sometimes shorter. This has been happening since I was 14.
I've now started to feel lonely and isolated and I refuse/get really nervous to see or talk to certain people (work folk, my bf's parents, family and some friends) i think its because i'm scared they will reject me and i feel intimidated by them. im also starting to feel down all the time and I feel like i'm always distracted (I go through bouts of this too).
I just need some advice on whether or not this is something I need to address?