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I'm 17 and basiclly.. I don't know what to do. I sit in my room crying nearly each day, no mater how much sleep I get I'm just always tired! And the friends I use to love are now people I push away because I don't want them around.. I live in a house where my step (parent) hates me and shouts abuse at me and seems to jus plain hate me, he treats his own two children like his princesses. A couple of days ago it go so unbearable I was sat on my bathroom floor and cut my stomatch and legs, and today I thought about suicide, i was so close.. Its not the first time I'm self harmed or thought of doing it..

I want to see a doctor or maybe a councilor, but I just don't think they could help and I also have anxiety which when i get panic attacks a lot, even at college for no reason, I just want to be me again, because I'm a stranger and enemy to myself... So I'm just looking for some guidence on what to do? Thank you in advance <3

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Hello musicislife,

You certainly sound as if you are suffering from depression and anxiety problems. These can seem insurmountable when we are in the midst of them and we we feel that there is no way out. Please, please make an appointment to see your doctor as you don't know what help is available until you do. Also please be open and honest about the way you are feeling and your self harming etc. when you see your doc as the more information you give them the more help they can give you! Please give it a try and expect it to take a little while until you start to get better, the road to recovery can seem long but it begins with just one step....

I wish you the very best of luck,

Carol (bipolar sufferer)

Xx <3

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Musicislife in reply to carol62

Thank you so much Carol, means the world for you to have replied, I will take your advice as soon as I can, again thank you!<3

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You're very welcome, I know from experience how bad the feelings can get and I hope you manage to get the help you need ASAP. I hope you let me know how you get on and you will be in my thoughts.

Carol <3 xxx

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Musicislife in reply to carol62

I got an emergancy doctors appointment today and I not have cousiling to help and CBT to boost my self esteem, and the doctor wants me to go back every month to monitor how I am doing, again that you so much! Xxxx

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Wow!!! What fantastic news! It must be relief to have taken that first step - it's not always easy and look how far that first step has taken you... I hope you are able to stick with the counselling and CBT even if at times you may feel its not getting you where you want to be quick enough! Well done, I mean it, I wish you all the very best for the future!

Carol xxx

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