Hi im new on this community! im struggling to understand whats going on in my mind.... a few years back i suffered from depression (not so sever that i would harm myself but it really affected my daily life) i was on anti-depressants for around 1 1/2 - 2 years. i managed to pick myself up, get myself a stable long term relationship, get myself into university and with alot off support got of the med's woo! id still get the odd down in the dumps/stressed patch but who doesnt? however over the past 3 months or so ive got myself into this bizzare downwards spiral. its not like last time..... hard to explain but basicaly im finding it hard to cope when im alone. what i mean by alone is like in the house on my own. whenever im home alone i get very down almost anxious to be there. im not scared to be in the house on my own i live in a quiet neighbourhood and have a great guard dog! lol. but i just cannot be there when my partner isnt. he works anything between 11-17 hour days and as soon as about 10mins after he goes to work im itching to get out of the house, my emotions start going all over the place worrying about life, finances, everything! i start ringing everyone i know to get out, if no ones available ill just go walk for hours to the shops just to have human interaction. i dont know if im slipping back into my depression or if im developing some other disorder. i love to be around people im not shy or overly quiet, i have to be around people 24-7 or it really affects me.
sorry for this long post, its starting to really affect me, my partner thinks i should get professional help but my doctors are useless and i just simply cannot afford private care, i dont know whats wrong or what to do!
anyone got any ideas or advice?? thanks