For those of you who may have had a Stroke or are the partners of someone who has, I would really recommend watching this film on BBC 4. It has been shown already and repeated so now only available on the BBC IPlayer.
It is a Documentary in which actress Maryam d'Abo, who suffered a brain haemorrhage in 2007, guides you through her personal journey of recovery and meets other survivors of brain injuries.
I had struggled to describe to my husband and family how I had felt after my stroke which made it difficult for them to understand and relate to how I was feeling and the emotions I was going through. They say that only those that experience similar situations can really relate so it was like a breath of fresh air to watch this film and find not just one but a number of people that had felt the same as I had done. At the time you feel you are in a cage, clawing at the sides to get out and screaming inside in silence because you can't find the words.
I recorded it for my husband but he didn't want to watch it so I left it for him to watch in his own time, yesterday unbeknown to me he did and afterwards he told me that he now understands what it is that I have been trying to explain to him. He says he "gets it" now.
He also tells me that it has brought home to him just how bad I was but how far I have come, but also how quickly things can change. I could tell from his eyes and face when he told me that he can see why I now behave in the way that I do that he can now really relate to what has happened to me. Deep down he had been assuming or perhaps it was just wishful thinking, that perhaps tomorrow or the next day, if he was lucky things would just go back to "normal"!
This should be made compulsory viewing for all families of stroke victims. Finally finding the words to describe something you have felt and then knowing you are not alone in feeling it is incredibly empowering.