Sometimes I feel as if I am losing my mind. I cannot string a sentence together or the wrong word comes out of my mouth. My husband says think about what I am going to say before I say it, however I do and from the point of thinking it in my brain to it getting to my mouth it comes out completely different. Even when I type something it can come out differently to what I thought I was typing. So I have to read it several times to make sure it is ok. Even when I read something I read it in the wrong way and again have to read it several times over to actually understand what I am reading. I know I am not stupid as I was an Administrator in a busy Nursing Home. I still work there and recently I was asked to take on the job again, however after 3 months I feel I cannot cope as the stress has caused my memory problems and speach problems to worsen. So much so that I have decided my health is the most important thing and I am going back to my two days on reception which is very frustrating. I read that I should write everything down but I am not consistent with this approach as I forget to write it down or think 'oh I will remember that' and then don't. I must drive my husband up the wall. The other day he asked me if I had my mobile phone, i said 'of course I have it is in my bag' He walked passed me up the stairs and came back with my phone! The annoying thing is I would have argued with him that it was in my bag. I just do not know how to handle this part of my APS. I feel like people must think I am mad, I say the wrong words all the time, I know this because of the way people look at me! I wish i could have a label on me saying i am not stupid I just have APS.
Sorry this is so long I just needed to let of steam really.