I'm a little bit confused about whether this sounds like autism or not?
I have friends, but its a very inclusive group, but when we are out or together I tend to walk behind or in front of them on my own because I feel better on my own. When I'm with other people I get a feeling like I'm closed in and things get really overwhelming very quickly. I'm quite an outgoing person, but I get very drained around people very easily.
I like being on time, and things have to happen at certain times. If we say we are leaving at 8am and we leave at 8.05 or 8.10 I get a 'painful' feeling in my stomach and get very stressed emotionally. Today we left half an hour late for something little and I was about two minutes off a full-blown panic attack.
I get stuck on seemingly random phrases in my head like 'my name, my name... etc' and it keeps repeating. I also have a habit of tracing sentences on my finger with my thumb while I'm saying them or someone else is saying them.
I have little worlds in my head that I go to all the time, like little stories but they're fully developed universes that I 'live' in as much as I do reality. Some of them are exactly the same as 'real-time' but there is someone else there. Some of them are based off books and some are just completely made up by me. When I'm in these worlds I have to listen to certain song and the whole thing plays out like a movie. Things have to play out in a timeline-like way, and nothing can be out of character for that world.
I really love puzzles and word teasers and stuff like that, I get obsessed with them until I finish them.
I hope this is enough detail, thank you for helping. If you need any questions answered feel free to ask.