DEAD MAN WALKING

[Phillipaussie]

Hi everyone,been sick as a pig and suicide is my main preoccupation, just can't escape the drama that seems to visit often,not my dramas, I'm 12000 miles from home my passport has expired and I am stranded destitute and scared , my marriage has all but ended, wife wants shod of me but I have been bed Oundle for weeks I get about 4 hours a day energy then I'm no good.

I feel my situation is allowing others to use my resources,I am being abused and treated like a dog, got to get to hospital tomorrow for tests as a day patient but my wife refuses to go so I can't get there.more missed appointment s and delay, I just want to die.went to my councillor for help gave me a phone number and sent me home. If this goes on much longer I'm gonna.thats why me not been on here lately,since I became an easy target don't know where to send an s.o.s. Can't get out.

[Sillysausage234]

Hi,Phillip sorry to hear your in such a bad place right now,and sounds like you have become isolated which is not a good place,can you talk to your gp over the phone?.iThink the hospital also can help you get to appointments if your unable to travel.do come on here for a rant that’s why we here pal don’t be alone.hope things improve soon for you.

[Phillipaussie in reply to Sillysausage234]

Thanks pal, I got mental health crisis team on the way isolate myself till they arrive, The drama around here none of mine just keep chipping away , I'm 12000 miles away from Australia and in deep deep crisis. With no help from anyone taking things one minute at a time, at least I have people like you as my only voice of reason.I may be a dead man walking but greatfull for your kindness.

[Graceallred in reply to Phillipaussie]

I’m so sorry u are going thru this alone. I hope u can get the help that u need too. No one should go it alone. Best wishes and warm hugs to you.

[Phillipaussie in reply to Graceallred]

You are all really amazing with your support been in a very dark lonely place of late, as I'm sure you already know, going to be busy sorting myself out but with you on side I know I have better odds of pulling myself together.you should be proud as by reaching out you have already helped us both. I will be here in return, Thank-you warm hugs to you too. Xx 😉

[Mizzkent]

Hey Phil good to see you on here! I’m so sorry you are going through such a terrible time.Please hang in there the worlds a better place with you in it! I know it may not seem that way now. Things will and do get better it won’t always be this bad.

I wish there was more I could do to help will pm you now xxxx

[Phillipaussie in reply to Mizzkent]

You already have helped me, Thank-you, got crisis team due soon will

[Phillipaussie in reply to Phillipaussie]

Just had a call as I was doing this the crisis team coming, Thank-you for being here. X

[Mizzkent in reply to Phillipaussie]

That’s good 👌I pray you get the help and support you need. We are always here for you no matter what! You take care and don’t be a stranger if you can let us know how you are I’ll be keeping you in my prayers Lots of love Cathy xx

[Graceallred in reply to Phillipaussie]

Good luck

[Phillipaussie in reply to Graceallred]

Thanks.

[Graceallred in reply to Phillipaussie]

U Welcome

[Phillipaussie in reply to Phillipaussie]

You have been there since I joined this site with uplifting encouragement, that is commendable that you not only take the time for me in my weakest moment but continue to show there is hope, I thought I was on my way out to be honest , it's paramount that you know how your words have helped steer me thru this storm,without them I would never have known just who really is there when the walls close in.xx

[Debbiedoos in reply to Phillipaussie]

Bless you I can totally understand it's emotions panic and stress .

Must admit myself you had me there for a bit my heart was pounding with you .

I stressed out a few times it's absolutely overwelming

Isn't it.

Bless you I pray for you it will be ok BUG HUGGS x

Please be ok keep us posted that your ok .

Iv a story to tell you

X

[Phillipaussie]

Just spoke to catt Team they here 3,30 so fingers crodded

[Phillipaussie]

Crossed.

[Mizzkent in reply to Phillipaussie]

Hang in there mate you have done the right thing for yourself. It’s not easy but it’s so very worth it! Xxx

[Phillipaussie in reply to Mizzkent]

I hope so, thanks again super woman. X

[Sillysausage234]

Don’t be fobbed off ,you need help today to put you on a more optimistic pathway whatever it takes good luck .

[Myob67]

Phillip, I'm prob older than many on this site and one thing that I have learnt with my greater age is that bad things (even REALLY bad ones) pass. I've had more than a few. You've just got to hang in there while you're waiting for them to move on.

It sounds like you've done the right thing and I hope the crisis team have helped you. The NHS still has many good things going for it and hopefully you'll find something that suits your needs

Let us know how you're doing. Keep ranting. It helps.

Lin xxx

[Hidden]

Hello Think anytime you wanna have a rant or a chat your very welcome to chat to me I wish you best of luck and hope I’m shore things will sort their self out best of look x

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Hidden]

Hi shell, nice reply bless your cotton socks have a good night 😊x

[Phillipaussie]

Hi Shellwash83, Thanks 4 that,will take you up on a chat Sometime, I'm Phil by the way and yep an Austin, but no the flue strain is not my doing.

[Hidden in reply to Phillipaussie]

Lol hello I’m Michelle and your more then welcome to chat anytime you need or just fancy a chat

[bunnyroo]

Phillipaussie NO! Where are you?(sorry, not my business) Suicide is NOT the answer, chap! Do you have any trusted friends nearby? I can't believe SOMEONE won't help you! As to your wife, no matter what's going on with you two, she is being inhumane! You wouldn't treat a dog like that! You can't fight back - it's SO unfair! I can only will you some perseverance, self-preservation, and actual caring. I DO care. I wish that, wherever you are, I were nearer and could give you some proper help. I so would if i could. I feel loads better now. Hope and pray you do, too. Please think alternative thoughts, happy thoughts! Remember times you been happy. You can and WILL be again! Better than. Because you will be shot of this virus! Fight! Fight to LIVE, Phillipaussie!!! As always, Good(the best) Luck 🍀 🍀 🍀 🍀

[Debbiedoos in reply to bunnyroo]

That's right fight fight fight never give in scream shout do what you have to but never give in x

[Phillipaussie]

I'm back on the road to life again,thanks for your support,I will let you know as I move on,can't thank you enough.

[Debbiedoos]

I felt that one with you hun

The outbursts are overwelming

I can relax now your ok iv know idea who you are lol but I'm happy for you x