I have PTSD 2.5 yrs. Brought on by stress from an injury and given a cocktail of pain medications and antidepressants. I have little memory of 3 months of my life. I was new to a city when it happened and my sister just said I was crazy. I was on narcotics and nerve pain drugs antidepressants. I was crazy from that. I almost died. Ive had trouble picking up from it and saw many psychiatrists and got diagnosed as many different things. Soon my doctor even said...this is ridiculous. I tried every pill for depression to bipolar my body doesn't accept them and they made things worse in many cases. I had flashbacks of things I don't fully recall from the 3 months and its terrifying especially because I think my mind recalls the terror and state on the medications at the time. When I am under a lot of stress it starts happening. The aftermath has left me affected by family & friends. I go into fight or flight mode and or turn inwards and push away. Recently I had to go off work the doctor didn't believe me I was so fatigued and stressed I was going through same thing as before with my health (that happened then) I had sinus infections and ovarian cysts and they burst I was exhausted and when the second infection hit I reached out for help from exhaustion and no one came....again like before. I'm going through ptsd and being alienated because I was too tired to cope. My job doesn't want me back as I was off work from previous injury and the cyst issue unknown at the time. I'm going broke and alone losing all my hair. I also pulled a muscle badly trying to recover from so much bed rest it was last straw. I'm going through depression from this and taking Ativan as I can't take antidepressants. I feel so let down from telling my family friends I was tired needed a place to land and no one came or comes. I have a lot on my plate financially going broke and alone. I try to be grateful and I can't afford programs to get well. There are no free ones in my area. Everyone just finds me a pain it seems and if I was physically well I'd be more comfortable but I'm not & I'm still exhausted feel helpless and alone. I had a normal life before and coping skills and my best friend told me to move by my family who live in middle of nowhere for support. It's across the country & I hate it there. I may have no choice and in unfamiliar territory scares the life out of me. I feel abandoned again alienated and physically unwell. I've had to pick up and cope so much in so many ways. My psychologist I had before the first accident happened and she says I function too highly others don't realize. And the medical system let me down. Canada sucks for seeing specialist and getting help in a prompt manner. I am afraid to love anyone anymore or letting them know I do and I see my psychologist my doctor and read books to help. The grief is overwhelming that I am going through this again. I have chronic pain from the first accident and my recovery from the cysts and sinus infections and pulled muscles is slow because I was so run down. People have just had enough of me and Ive tried to handle it on my own & with help. I feel like a freak because I'm losing all my hair it's pretty bad I've lost most on the sides and top. The ptsd kicked in and won't go away because of job stress and pain and sadness regarding my family friends.