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I've made my choice not to go on any more medication I felt disconnect from myself before I went on paroxtine i just feel really confused about how I'm feeling when I go out it just feels weird I try not to let it scare me but it's so hard to put into words :(

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Yes, it may be hard to put into words, but do try to do so.

People here will recognize what you are talking about and can offer you help and support.

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I don't know this medication but I had very weird feeling from antidepressants.

I gradually got used to the medication

The side effects are worse in the first week or two, then it gets better.

I understand that kind of a feeling.

However I would still recommend that you don't stop or change your medications on your own, without consulting with the doctor. You need to gradually reduce the dosage over a period of time. Stopping them rapidly may cause you some bad withdrawal effects. Please contact a doctor if you can...

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I'm still taking med just hoping the weird feeling on this tab goes .

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Hope so too...try to read information about it and what side effects might occur and for how long.

I hope you find the right path for you. As others said please contact your Dr. and let them know what you are feeling. It may be just that medication its self our maybe your body doesn't adjust well to that class of medication.

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I agree with u it's stop the panic attack I. Had the feeling of unreality before I started the med I just want to move forward but it's so hard I just feel stuck I want to be present for my kids

Micky14 I have had some severe panic and anxiety don't use medication because of one very severe reaction. Just wondering what else have you tried to help with the panic and unreality?

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Breathing self soothing I've had cbt 12 session which didn't help smelling lavender on a tissues going for walks hugging my kids I didn't want to go on medications my physcrist said if I do not get some form of medication I will be in hospital I've taken it for my kids also had a very low mood I tried 7 months without meds but the dissociation was getting out of control I'll panic and have know idea where I was all of this is scary I though I just had anxiety not ptsd

Well anxiety in its self is overwhelming enough. For me it's my strongest and long lasting symptom. I can only go by my experience but let me ask you do you feel a lot of fear on a regular basis?

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I am scared I've never felt this dissconneted from myself my life the world my kids I fight to be hear every day

In my experience with anxiety getting worse due to my PTSD and hanging on I find that my fearful thinking sends messages to my body which produces the tension and the feeling I don't like. If I don't catch it the tension mounds and can lead to panic attacks. I think PTSD left me with a nice dose of primal FEAR! It has been really hard for me to stay in my logical mind many times. I default to the fearful mind. For me it's a lot of health anxiety and body sensations. I think bc my most recent trauma's were medical. It's good that you have proper medical guidance. I have had the full extent of these symptoms. For the disassociation for me it was like being spaced out (like I"m here but I'm not) I think it was mild compared to many but it lasted for weeks off and on when it was at it's worst. But some things I learned was to get back into my body with hard aerobic exercise. Running helped me connect with my body. It also helps with the chemicals that the fear response produces and relaxes the muscles. Something my therapist taught me when I felt the fear and my mind starts to race is ask my self "What do I notice right now?" Start to ask yourself that and get back into the present moment. Remind yourself that you are now safe and that this feeling will pass. Did the feeling of being disconnected become worse on the medication?

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It's like the med has carmed the panic hyovigllance but I felt really dissocneted from myself before I started med it's like Ive picked up on some weird sensation my vision is. Spacey weird at time I get so scared that I'm not hear I look in the mirror I just dnt see myself dose that make sense

I just wanted to mention in my experience with anxiety when I had the trauma and after the PTSD I began to fear the fear. If that makes sense. Like I feared the way I felt. So I kept adding more fear and more adrenaline which leads to ongoing physical sensations. I don't know if you can relate to that or not but for me once I realized my own fear of how I feel was keeping me feeling this way I had a little more wisdom. It doesn't change everything all at once but it's some insight that once the original trauma is over and we have this overwhelming primal energy and fear it's overwhelming and hard to manage so we start to fear "it". A cycle of fear adrenaline fear begins. So for me now if I feel spaced out I tell myself it's just anxiety. Or if I feel myself getting more tense which really I'm pretty much tense every day I try to remind myself to relax my body a little bit more. Since I started to accept how I feel and try not to fear it all though I still have anxiety it's not really as severe as it was. I can recover more quickly by relaxing. I don't really get spaced out anymore unless I'm really overwhelmed or very tired. Does any of this relate to you at all?

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All of it if I'm in a situation that I've feared hate being alone it's like a spacey anxiety it makes me feel like Im not in my body it's odd and things are so bright

Yes this mirror thing makes a lot of sense to me. What is your mind focused on? Is it 99% focused on how you feel? If you think about it if your mind is wired for fear and focusing on how you feel there is no room for the outside world so you feel disconnected and unreal right?

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Yes everything I'm so focused on how I feel it's annoying I do tell myself it's anxiety and I allow it there but it becomes too much at times

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How long have you had this anxiety?

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I missed carried last year :( was quite poorly after I just tried to get on with life so a year and 3 months I will be going to my docstors to see if I can reduce my med

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Oh I'm sorry. I'm sure there is a lot of grief to work through there. I wish you the very best. There is a way out of anxiety. But it's not easy. I am not going to take any medication. I am determined to do it the natural way. Because for me medication adds more problems. I just can't handle it in my system. But if there is a medication that can help you or an adjustment I hope you find it.

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Thank u for letting me talk it's help understand how I'm feeling I do not feel so crazy inside.ur a very strong person and I wish u best with ur healing anxiety :-) and thank u again

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The same to you. Keep us posted.

I asked you about the medication because it's hard to know what is causing the sensations. Is it a side effect or the anxiety? That's important to find out. Because if it's anxiety there is a way out of it through accepting the sensations, trying to stop adding more fear, and letting time pass..... If it's from the medication I am not sure what you should do your Dr. will have to let you know that.

Mickey14. My Therapist recommended Essential oil for helping me "snap" out of my dissociation, at least a short term bout. She said peppermint or orange, but if you have anxiety too, might not be helpful. So sorry for your loss. My miscarriage years ago, was a huge event that set the wheels in motion for my PTSD. I understand doing things that would be out of character for the sake of my kids. Good luck in your journey.

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