Ok so when I was 4 my father molested me. Yesterday I was talking with my therapist about it a little. We haven't gone into the details but it was heavy on my mind after I left the session. Well, last night I had a dream that my father urinated in my mouth. The worst part is that I woke up and realized that I had an orgasm in my sleep. I am completely and utterly disgusted about the whole thing for so many different reasons. I do plan to talk to my therapist about this next time I see her, but I feel like I can't wait until our appointment. I dissociate and sometimes when I do I call her and leave stupid messages that don't make sense. I've apologized for doing this but she tells me I don't have to be sorry. I feel she says that to make me feel better. ...but if I call her and leave a message about my dream on her vm she may get upset. She may not know what the hell to say to me, you know? I am just horrified with this and I don't know what to do.