My name is Ian, and I’m new here. I have a severe mental illness.
Last year during a deep depression I tried to take my own life by carbon monoxide poisoning. I became unconscious and had a seizure, was close to death, but was saved by paramedics. I was taken to A&E and then sent for hyperbaric oxygen treatment. I didn’t have any scans or other investigations and was discharged after an overnight stay into a psychiatric hospital for three weeks. When I tried to explain my concerns about CO poisoning and brain damage they simply ignored me.
That was all ten months ago. Today I feel terribly alone with my brain injury. I have had no support other than the love of my wife and my faith.
I have definitely noticed some symptoms. My sleep is very broken, I have regular stomach upsets, diarrhoea and nausea, I have a numbness down one side of my face. I sense that I have become somewhat agoraphobic and my motivation has vanished. I find it hard to concentrate and tire very easily.
I am afraid that death is lurking just around the corner and that there is no help or hope for me. I try to live just one day at a time but find that m6 mind sometimes starts trying to predict the future.
Thank you for letting me share.