Update...

[peaches2]

Sorry to you all. I haven't been in the frame of mind to type on here. I haven't picked myself up much since my saga but I keep plodding on and trying hard. I have my mri tomorrow to see how things are doing inside this head after the radiotherapy and then I get my results on the 8th Feb. My minds all over the place, one minute I'm saying to myself I'll be fine the next reality kicks in and I keep thinking I've got a brain tumour, I've got a brain tumour... it's not tonsillitis or something, it's a brain tumour, it's growing again...then I'm thinking it's ok tho as they blasted it, etc etc etc. I really am so up and down and as silly as it sounds I'm desperate to get my hair coloured and cut....Worzel Gummidge doesn't have a look in but then again....I've still got hair and for that I'm grateful! I've aged about thirty years since finding out last March it was growing back, no joke, my bodies feeling old and sore and I'm so tired but I'll blooming well do it....I'll drag myself....alone again on the train for my mri...(I'm here alone for a while speaking to the walls and sometimes even the curtains....Kane Dingle off Emmerdale is becoming more appealing everyday due to loneliness haha!!) I even thought it would be a good idea to have my eyes tested today to find out why my vision is failing rapidly and I thought oh well at least I can talk the hind legs off the optician and his assistants while I'm there, it'll let me know I still actually have a voice! Anyway folks, I really hope you are all well and doing your best. Thinking of my cyber family with love....may knowing you are all there give me the strength to get out of bed, get showered and get my backside on the train tomorrow! Thank you all. xx

[cat3]

I don't doubt for a minute that you'll be on that train tomorrow, doing what you always do ................ facing up to those difficult issues with courage and humour. You're so lovely Peaches ; I hope with all my heart that this is all leading up to a happy conclusion ; you've been so brave & really deserve the best possible outcome.

Thinking of you. xxx

[angelite]

Sending all best wishes for tomorrow, Peaches.

Sorry to hear that you have to go on your own but know that we are all there with you in spirit : )

Angela x

[Nks425]

Hugs and prayers all the way from the states!!! Here's to good news Peaches!!!!

Niyani

[MXman]

Massive hugs to you peaches. Just read your post and again massive hugs. God Bless and as we do keep doing what your doing. XX Nick

[Annie-2]

Hi Peaches,

Inspirational, determined and resilient - yes-that's you I am talking about!

Thinking of you. 😄 x x

[lisa85]

I really am sorry to hear your feeling this way peaches2 but in a way I guess with everything you've already gone through its expected for you to feel this way. I do hope your MRI goes well and that the tumor hasn't returned, but if it has you and they have hopefully caught it early enough. Please keep us informed of what happens and don't be sorry you've not been on hee.

All the best Lisa1985 xxx

[BaronC]

Keep on keeping on, it's all you can do. Very, very well done for getting this far, lesser folk might crumble, but not you. Still going, still fighting.

Wonderful stuff!

Baron/Andy

[Elenor3]

Oh dear sending you a very big hug and good luck with your results. I totally understand how you must be feeling. Bless you

[peaches2]

Thank you so much for your lovely replies, it means so much to me, as apart from my hubby and one friend I feel as though you guys are the only folk that completely understand how difficult this journey is that we are on. I'm up, didn't sleep much but have eaten porridge for breakfast to give me strength ...didn't much fancy spinach but need Popeyes strength from somewhere!! My appointment is 5pm which is late so it will be late and dark by the time I get back but I'm going to eat at the hospital before I catch the train back to give me the best chance of keeping moving without the fatigue kicking in! (I wish!) Then tomorrow I have decided I will walk into town and buy myself a treat as I've never been very good at doing that and it's about time I did...I always liked my girls to have the best and I've forgotten myself along the way, so here's to a hopefully new beginning...mri today, results on 8th Feb then I'll sprint to that hairdresser if I get the all clear and boy oh boy I will rock those blonde highlights, get my skinny jeans on and my husband will be here by then so I've decided he can take me out somewhere nice for tea....and that's only the beginning of my story for the future! Check me....I've got it all sorted in my mind haha and if it's not the best result I'll still hit the hairdresser and we can still eat somewhere nice as.... life's too short. I'm pretty damned tired and it's only morning but I'll get on and do it...I might even pretend the shampoo is like vanish soap and every time I rub it on my head it's removing what should never be inside my head!....where there's a will there's a way!!!! Thanks again you bunch of lovely people, I would be lost without you all! xx

[randomphantoms]

Sorry Peaches.

It's the not knowing that does your head in isn't it.

You know that we are thinking of you.

Like Cat I have no doubt that you will get there and if this doesn't come too late please ask for a copy of the report. if for no other reason than you can go through it at your own pace and when you are a lot less stressed.

Wishing you the best possible news.

Love n hugs

Xoxoxoxo

[peaches2 in reply to randomphantoms]

Good idea, I have never even thought to do that! Cheers randomphantoms and yes it's the unknown that drives the mind crazy...if you let it, which at times I'm sure we all do. Thanks again. xx

[cat3 in reply to peaches2]

Hope all went well today Peaches.................. and that you'll go ahead tomorrow with that special treat. Cat xx

[Laura64]

You are a star - no doubt about it!

Stay strong and good luck. Xxxx

[razyheath43]

really hope it all went well, you are strong and i know sometimes that is tiring! but hey you can do it! big hugs