I'm sitting in a hospital room at south shore hospital in Massachusetts visiting my dad. ( when he's awake at least), currently he's sleeping.
It started Thursday night when my dad was saying he was in pain and obviously looked extremely frail. My brother decided it was best to call an ambulance. As you know, my dad can't walk, he can't make himself food, and it has gotten to the point that he can now barely sit up to drink a sip of water. He was very dehydrated and his potassium and maganisum were dangerously low. I rushed from Maine to Massachusetts to visit at the local hospital and the sentences he was forming were not cohesive. They didn't make sense and he would almost moan and groan as if he was in pain.
When he went to a local hospital- the doctor ( who doesn't know my dads history with cancer) said he believed it was possibly spreading in his brain or other parts as well. He ordered a cat scan of his brain and it came back negative. Thank God. I was a little perturbed that the doctor would make an assumption like that and scare us all, before doing the scan, but I guess It is what it is.
He is now transported to the south shore hospital in Weymouth, this is where he gets his chemo and they know his medical history.
As childish and selfish as this might sound- I feel like my dad isn't the same. He's always in a bad mood, he sleeps probably 20+ hours a day. Sometimes I don't even think he knows I'm here. He wakes up delirious and usually very grumpy. 😔 I miss my warm, big blue eyed dad I use to have. The dad that use to call me everyday to see how my day was going, and give me the best hugs and shoulder to cry on when I needed it, like right now!
Please say a prayer for my dad to get through this cancer and please say a prayer for me too. Thanks!