Well I don't even know where to being! It wasn't the news I was expecting that's for sure. For those of you that don't know on July 12, 2016 I had a lobectomy of my right lower lobe which there was 1 mass NSCLC Adencocarcinoma, Or so we thought. Well today I found out that there were two masses of NSCLC Adenocarcinoma I'm the lower lobe of the lung, and SCLC Carcinoma I'm one of my lymph nodes. My Thoracic surgeon does understand why the lymph nodes is showing SCLC. So for now I will be getting a MRI of the brain, Chemo for a couple of months starting in 2 weeks, Radiation therapy my doctors wants to share my case with his colleagues. I guess I'm consider a special case. Yeah I'm sure feeling special! They did up my Gabapentin for the nerve pain 200mg morning and 200mg afternoon and 300mg at bedtime. So hopefully that will help with the pain. If not still can up the meds. My cough is getting better too. I'm feeling overwhelmed right now, questioning why me? What did I ever do that was so terrible? I've already been through enough. I've been through a terrible divorce, raise 3 kids on my own with no help, Had to go to court to fight to see my grandson. I'm only 49 years old. I've raised 3 great kids a police officer, welder/ mechanic and cosmetology. Isn't this suppose to be my time now ?To breathe easier! Sit back and enjoy life? But no I get another slap in the face. It's like I can't get a break! Questioning my religion! I'm a good person! I worked in a Pediatric Emgenecy Dept. of a #1 trauma hospital for 8 years helping save life's. SO WHY! Please tell me Why Me! When can I catch a break!! I'm sorry for venting. I know that there are people on here that situations are much worse then mine . I should be thankful that I have 3 kids and 1 grandson that are health. I'm just so overwhelmed with emotions right now. I know I will get through this.I know I need to stay POSITIVE! But I just had to get this off my chest. Sorry if I offend or upset anybody!
The New Girl Patty!