Had enough can't cope with everything

[Chris_uk_kent]

If I was to drink all 300ml of morphine bottle would I just go to sleep peaceful.???

[Silver_Flower]

Please don’t do that. We’re here to help each other, and we have ears to listen. Do you want to share what’s going on? I can’t fix the problem, but I can listen. Telling someone about what’s going on might help??

[Silver_Flower]

If you feel suicidal or harming yourself, Chris, please please go to Emergency before you act on it. I've been there myself before, and I know how hard feeling might get, but I realised that there are people out there who are willing to listen and help you to get through the crisis

[Katherinedeane]

Huge hugs and sympathies - so sorry you are feeling like this. As the other guys said please get some help - I've used the Samaritans in the darkest hours of the night samaritans.org/ and they have been brilliant. It does get better

[geordie-girl]

Please Chris do not do it, hang on in there, make an urgent appointment at the doctors and tell them how you are feeling. Know what you are going through. Hugs and lots of love Babs xx

[mariethewitch]

hi chris please dont try this as it doesnt solve nothing ,i understand where you are coming from as i took a massive overdose earlier this year due to my fnd and thankfully i was found and saved , fnd is such a frustrating condition but we must stay strong as there is always hope ,please find someone that you feel safe with to talk to and throw the temptation away and get help, if your gp doesnt listen you can self refer to mental health services as i know that fnd isnt a mental health issue although doctors would have you believe this but it sounds like you need support with your low mood ,if you live in the south west of the uk the rosa burden centre at southmead hospital neurophschiatry the staff there are wonderful and very understanding of this condition and they take referrals from all over south west uk and although my fnd is constant they helped me so much, sending you hugs and hang on in there

[mariethewitch]

hi chris sorry just noticed your in kent ask your gp for a referral to a neuro phsychiatry unit near you and always ask about the rosa burden centre as they may take you as there were patients in from further a field, im sure there is a similar centre near london

[LEEJUNFAN]

Hi Chris,

All I can say is that if you want to talk to me then I'm available.

My wife has FND and I see the desperation often and I see the hope too.

All our love and prayers.

Tony & Kim xx

[Chris_uk_kent]

Thank you everyone you got me through this time, I cannot cope anymore pain, fogging, pain, frustration, pain, pain f#£&#% pain very sorry to swear

You have given me info that not even the social help i was getting told me, I never Knew about Rosa I will make enquiries today, but I can't even drag myself out of bed to find my meds so gonna hide in bed today,

Sorry for scaring people I don't really know what's going on anymore, feel like I've let my whole family down,

9 years solid battle, coma, wheelchair, incontinence, unending pain, plus loads of Seizures (Nead), I lost my job house respect and sanity, and my doctor who has been fighting for me has been moved to another practice.

46 years old not knowing what is next trying to take day by day.

THANKS EVERYONE FOR BEING HERE XXXX

Chris

[Leesaloo]

Hi Chris, I too have been where you are, twice now, I got help through my dr referring me to a charity called Health in mind. I was so scared because I had come to the end of my sanity and knew I'd had enough. Although the charity couldn't help with the FND they listened to me, they came for 3 days and phoned when I could talk. Just being able to talk to someone helped as I was so isolated and lonely. My partner is brilliant with me but has to work, my family didn't know what o think or do, their voices overwhelmed me and I just couldn't cope. This year since Xmas I have weaned myself off Diazepan and tramadol and have got slowly better mentally but not physically. I no longer have these thoughts of dying and am in a better place, it has took a long time but worth it. This website is also a godsend as when you read what others have wrote you know your not alone on this awful journey of FND. Please just try to talk to someone it makes so much difference to know someone is listening. Big hugs to you. 🤗🤗🤗

[Chris_uk_kent in reply to Leesaloo]

Thanks I no longer talk to my family about it my wife has 4 children to cope with and is struggling with me at the moment, it is unfair of me to burden them anymore, originally they thought I had FTD and I had lots of support, but now they are saying FND and I get no help, I've cost my family there security and safety of their house and home they loved.

[Leesaloo in reply to Chris_uk_kent]

I too blamed myself for a long time, we nearly lost our home until I got pip and esa. My pip first one I got 2 points as my partner answered the questions as I couldn't. Next one we got help from health in mind and was awarded full amount. If you've never been ill or claimed before, we answered all questions wrong. Esa are now making me go through another interview which I'm dreading. I still get guilty feelings but I know this FND is not my fault. It's none of our fault. I too shut myself down and don't speak, it takes time to come back out of it. The charity helped with that, helped me to open up, it makes a huge difference. Please ask your dr for this charity, they saved my life. They helped me mentally and financially. I would think greatly they could help you too. They also helped your family, give them and you the support you need. Please please call and get the help your entitled to and deserve. 🤗 🤗🤗

[Chris_uk_kent in reply to Leesaloo]

Sorry to be silly but which charity, thanks

[Leesaloo in reply to Chris_uk_kent]

Hi Chris, not being silly at all. I live in Essex and it was Health in mind. The hardest part was asking for help but I knew I was rock bottom and needed help. Best regards

[Renwick1]

Hang on in there I'm told suicide leaves behind a trail that a family never gets over it is tough but there could yet be light at the end of the tunnel

[Chris_uk_kent]

Thanks everyone I took your advice and phoned emergency after being bounced round the NHS for a bit, I was admitted into our medway unit under the mental health act for a short period to keep safe. Thanks everyone a thousand times I am feeling a bit safer.

[Chris_uk_kent in reply to Chris_uk_kent]

Oh and I now have an active crisis management team in place for going forward

[Leesaloo in reply to Chris_uk_kent]

Hi Chris again, that was what I got from health in mind a crisis team. Well done. 🙏🤗

[Leesaloo]

Hi Chris if you read this, just wondering how you are. Big hugs 🤗

[Chris_uk_kent]

Doing OK thanks getting a lot of support currently, currently waiting for the sych teak to turn up for their daily check