I have been 'lurking' here for a while now - reading blogs but never posting but i just feel so rubbish at the moment I dont know what to do.
I am wracked with fibro pain in my back and legs and feel so fed up that my walking is very limited. On top of that Three weeks ago my left leg started to swell and became really painful and i was diagnosed with a deep vein thrombosis and put on Warfarin for 6 months however although the hospital has tried desperately to get my blood levels right it swings from really high to really low for no known reason. And on Monday after having spent an amazing weekend with some really close friends I was hit by a massive depression largely due to the fact that my friends accept me for who i am but my I rarely see my own family as they dont accept my illness - i have had two days off work mainly sleeping/crying but have come back into the office today because i have been immensely pressured by my boss who also doesnt understand (he actually made me come into the office the day i was diagnosed with my life threatening thrombosis) but i just cant afford to stay off any longer although all I want to do is curl up and sleep. Finally I divorced my ex-husband 3 years ago but he has remained in the marital home since then although he recently sold it and the sale is due to complete on Friday but I have found out that there is not enough for him to pay my financial settlement as he has 70k of business debts secured against the house for a business which is no longer trading but he somehow managed to transfer them to a new business which he started after i divorced him and his only suggestion is that he pays me a weekly pittance until 2018 (given that he is 64 now he may not even be around that long). Sorry to ramble on just had to get this off my chest! I just dont know which way to turn right now.