Just wanna say thanks. This past few weeks have been really hard going. But I get the email digest every morning and it's the first thing I read before I get up. I don't often post or comment but I take it all in and sometimes it's good advice, something I can relate to or something I can answer, or something that makes me smile or laugh, and sometimes it makes me remember that I'm not the only one going through all this. It can b hard when you're havin a bad day or week and nobody understands completely. I would d never wish what I have on anyone ur sometimes I selfishly think 'if only you had it for just 1 day you'd understand' but that awful I know.
I am up and down with my GP as to whether I like her or not depending on how sympathetic and understanding she is. I'm still waiting to see pain managEment an have been on a lot of meds.
Last night I made the decision that despite the pain I want my life back as much as possible and I'm going to slowly wean off the drugs if I can. I have already been weaned off Cymbalta because I had awful side effects one being I was unable to wee! So painful! I'm not going to have the next 60 years of my life run by drugs. 6 years I've been on painkillers. 6 months since diagnosed with fibro, cfs and osteoarthritis. It's not going to go away but I WILL be in control. I'm going to try to push on through and hopefully cope. I have lost my job, friends and life because of this. I want it back!!
I doubt il ever have the energy to return to childcare but I'm starting
MY own business that I can be in control of and hopefully succeed and earn a little on top.
So thanks everyone for bein my friend even though we never met and don't chat much. This place is the most support I've had from anyone other than my hubby who is my angel. He saved me from a life of abuse when we met and he has saved me again so many times over the past 10 years with all the pain I've had. He like you, is my strength to keep going. So thank you and never ever give up on your dreams. You are you and nobody can change or replace that.
Gentle hugs to everyone. Jen xxx