Went for my appointment this morning and I was already to tell him how down I am. He asked me how my hernia op had gone and I told him that I was a bit worried as I do have some problems he spent ages going over that by which time I seemed to have lost track of what I was going to say. I just went on and on and on about not sleeping and he said he thought lack of sleep and pain were the problem. He has given me a weeks suply of sleeping tablets and I have to go back next Monday. When I got home I realised I hadnt said all the things I had planned too. I have got myself into a right state crying and shaking and angry with myself. I rang my Community nurse and talked to her and she is going toget me in to see the consultant.
Sorry to go on but I am so depressed sometimes I wonder where this is all going to end without going to work I feel useless no point in my days. I was a nursery nurse and I miss those children so much and my work mates.
Hope the rest of you are feeling alot better than I am xx