Hi I'm 19 and have been suffering with pains in my legs and groin since I was around 10 years old (shortly after my grandfather past) and they were forever just put down to "she's growing" I've not grown since I was 16 and I still get these pains...
Fast forward to now, these pains have now spread to my shoulders and neck and I have being put on ESA. I've seen 2 rhumertologists 1 saying I have fibro and 1 saying I don't 😩. I have also suffered with anxiety and depression from the age of 5/6 as my dad in manic depressive bipolar and my cousin was in a near fatel car accident so I struggle with that too.
So now my dads saying I'm lazy and if I want to get my own place (I live with my fiancé's family) then I need to go to college or get a job. I had a job for 6 months from October 2014- April 2015 which is when I moved counties to be with my other half. At this job I struggled, I was in pain after every shift. I would have panic attacks and some days I just didn't want to leave the house. As for college I went and within the first 6-8 weeks my mum had to pull me and my anxiety was horrendous and was making me ill.
I've tried getting a Jove since I left my previous one but after 7hours of being on my feet I could no longer move and I was terrified that if I returned it would happen again. I don't know what I pm asking I'm just looking for I guess I'm just asking if you think that I'm just growing my life away. He doesn't understand that trying to exercise can make the pain worse and that's why I struggle losing the weight I have gained.