Today we went for our first appointment to discuss donor egg conception.
What a whirlwind. Here's me thinking the most difficult decision I would have to overcome would be choosing to cut a genetic tie; panicking if I would love a child which didn't come from my egg. Now I'm faced with more challenges.
We were informed that we could go abroad, to Cyprus. Quicker, higher success rate... the doctor really sold it to us as an option - an option we'd never considered.
Now I'm stuck... stuck deciding between a two year wait in this country or going abroad... being treated abroad, being in another country, cutting the potential ties my child might want to one day explore (since it's anonymous) and now... our genetic family tree begins a new chapter with an overseas gene.
As I right this I feel crazy. Did anyone else have to overcome these fears and concerns? Did anyone feel guilty for being offered an opportunity and questioning it ethically or for struggling to comprehend?
Did anyone go abroad?