2nd round - so much more anxious 😖

[Millbanks]

I’m super grateful that we’re able to start our 2nd round next week as I know lots of you are still waiting for clinics to get their acts together...

But I’m feeling infinitely more anxious this time round. I don’t know if for the first round ignorance was bliss but I’m so nervous to start all the drugs again. What if it doesn’t work? How will I cope?!

It is just me or have other people felt like this too?

Xxx

[Nat246]

I feel exactly the same. I stupidly convinced myself it would work the first time. Second time round you know better and I think that’s why it’s harder.

The positivity and hope are gone xx

[Millbanks in reply to Nat246]

That’s exactly it! I was so convinced it would work I was in for a shock... xx

[Nat246 in reply to Millbanks]

Exactly. Fingers crossed your next cycle goes well. Have they changed anything? X

[Picalilli99]

Great news that you can get going! I think it’s totally normal to feel anxious. I would say try not to think too far ahead if you can and just take it one day at a time (although I know this can be easier said than done!). If you haven’t seen it already - the MindfulIVF app is great as there are specific exercises to listen to for every step of the process. I found it definitely helped to keep me more calm! Best of luck lovely xxx

[Millbanks in reply to Picalilli99]

Thank you lovely, good advice! I will try to do that 💖 You know I did download it but never got round to using it! Thanks for the reminder.. hope you’re doing well xxx

[Solly-44]

I think it’s completely natural to be more anxious the 2nd time around. I was worried about how I’d cope too, but somehow you just do when it gets going. Remember to try to keep some of the excitement (easier said than done I know!).

It’s scary but you are stronger than you think. Wishing you all the luck xx

[Millbanks in reply to Solly-44]

Thank you lovely. I think I will be excited once we’re off. Just pre medication nerves and the old feeling sorry for myself that I have to go through all of this!!

I hope you’re doing really well 💖💖

[Chel91]

Totally understandable, especially after the delay and uncertainty there has been recently! I think I'm going to be a wreck for my next cycle too. The pressure just builds and builds it seems! Wishing you all the best though, you got this!! Crossing my fingers for a wonderful result 🤞💕 xxxx

[Millbanks in reply to Chel91]

Thanks Chel! It really does. It’s helpful to know others feel like this too. Do you know when yours is starting? Fingers crossed for you too xxx

[Hidden]

Hey Iovely this is sooooo completely normal!! The first round is such a blissful exciting optimistic time and the second round you feel so anxious and try not to be pessimistic but the doubts start kicking in! I think the best thing is to try and accept this is how it’s going to be and try and find ways to manage it? I agree with picalilli the mindfulness ivf is super and a great daily check in and zen moment. Try some deep breathing as well and maybe some visualisation of you being pregnant? That’s supposed to be very good

If I was a betting woman I reckon you will feel better once you have started as you are on the travelator then and you are under someone else’s control - so keep taking deep breaths!

And as always MASSES of luck we are cheerleading you from the sidelines! Xx

[Millbanks in reply to Hidden]

Thanks Daisy. It really does help to have all of you here. You’re all so amazing and strong and always make me feel better 💖

I will definitely try the app 👍🏼 and I’m sure you’re right, I will feel better once we get going.... I know I’m lucky to be in this position so I don’t want sound sound ungrateful, better to be anxious about it all starting than anxious about waiting for it to start.

Hope you’re really well lovely, what’s the next step for you? Did you decide? Xxx

[Hidden in reply to Millbanks]

You don’t sound ungrateful at all! It’s really natural to be anxious especially when the round one bubble has burst!

I am on waiting list to start again - they reckon August sometime 🤞🏻🤞🏻xx

[Millbanks in reply to Hidden]

Bring back the round one bubble I say!!

Oh brill. Fingers crossed for you lovely, really hope it comes round super quickly. Tbh the weather has been so lush it’s definitely made the waiting easier (for me). Hope you can enjoy a few weeks of relaxation before it all kicks off again xxx

[User20]

That is totally normal. I feel exactly the same way. Starting my 2nd cycle in about 10days. While I do feel excited I also feel nervous, especially as it'll likely be my last try.....

Good luck for you 🍀

[Millbanks in reply to User20]

Thank you! Wishing you so much luck too. I hope we can both be calm and zen and get the best result! Xx

[Running79]

I’ve just started Meds for our second round, I wouldn’t say I’m scared, more sceptical and certainly lost the rose tinted glasses!

I’ve only had one scan and the clinic are saying I might have another polyp - which I’m convinced is a polyp on the back wall which they said last time didn’t cause an issue, but their on about having a saline scan again, which I was sort of stupidly convinced that was something important, for them to then shove a price list under my nose telling me it’ll cost £2500 to have it removed, so I’ve already convinced myself this is where this is heading already but we will see!

I think everyone feels differently I know people who have had IVF work first time round, as we have unexplained fertility I thought we would be the same and it work, but there you go

[Millbanks in reply to Running79]

Oooo good luck!! I had a polyp removed a week ago as they think it’s possible it caused my previous FET to fail. I know it is pricey but I’m really hoping this gives us the upper hand for this round. On the plus side, the removal also acts like a scratch so could be beneficial?

Xx

[Running79 in reply to Millbanks]

I’ve had at least 2 polyp investigations - one was removed and the second there was nothing there, so it obviously dropped out!

I keep reminding myself that private clinics are a business, so like last time if it is a polyp I’ll do the same again, I’ll proceed to egg collection, we have been advised to do PGT-A testing, I’m 40 and my husbands 58 so it’s not only for age purpose to have the genetic testing it’s for unexplained infertility, as my husbands already got a son from a previous marriage and he’s had previous DNA fragmentation done on his sample. So if PGTA testing is done after that they have to freeze the embryos anyway, do nothing lost really. I’ll then contact my GP and have it removed in the NHS

[Millbanks in reply to Running79]

That sounds like a good plan. Yes they do come and go apparently!