Such mixed emotions this morning. I’m due to take my trigger shot today, ready for egg collection on Monday. I got a phone call from my twin brother to say that he and his wife are expecting. They have no idea we’re going through ivf.
I’m obviously thrilled for them but the timing of them telling me has totoally knocked me off course. I was feeling really positive about this round (our 4th 🤦♀️) with no tears.....until now. I know it’s the medications and hormones playing with me too but the selfish part of me felt like at least we weren’t the only ones in the family without a baby (I have 2 other sisters with kids).
My brother’s wife is diabetic so they said it might take them some time.
We’re all going on a family holiday in the uk next year, renting a house and he just wanted to check that we didn’t mind having the room up in the loft as he didn’t think it would be wise for them to have to go up 3 flights of stairs with a new baby. Part of me wanted to tell him what we were going through and that we might (🙏) be in the same position but I also didn’t want to take anything away from his moment.
Just needed to let it all out in this essay as my husband won’t be here until Sunday night. I called him to tell him but it came out as a blubbering mess and then I felt guilty as he thought someone had died!
I’ve got to pick myself up and get back on my positive track (yet again) and pray that some of those twin pregnancy vibes come my way!