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We had our appointment on Monday to discuss next steps.

Literally all good to go for it; just need to choose a date. Baseline scan booked in, other blood tests to be done soon.

Why am I in no rush? This time last year if someone had said “want to do it in 8 weeks?” I’d have been jumping up and down with excitement. Now I just want to skip to the end and not go through it all.

I’m not excited or scared. Feel a bit nondescript. Anyone else like this?

Mr Emu’s description of starting again was probably spot on... “Meh”. And then he saw the first invoice. Mr Yorkshire was firmly back in the room. Bless him and his cobwebbed wallet.

Hope you’re all well x

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7AVA profile image
7AVA

I feel very like that about our cycle - I think it’s protectionism. Wishing you all the very best xxx

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Dunla in reply to 7AVA

Yes I think you’re right, probably self preservation. Makes sense x

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emu2016 in reply to 7AVA

Thank you x

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Lou290901

I feel exactly the same and it’s like a breath of fresh air reading that someone else feels the same! After a m/c last year and two more rounds resulting in BFN I just feel deflated and how you describe. If anything, I feel I’m holding off and keep telling my sister to look at the end of April beginning of May (we had planned to hold off slightly anyway due to a family wedding abroad in Sept) it’s hard to think of going through all that again and also knowing my Sis gets no more funding and they now have to pay so much money really adds to my worry about it working. They have already decided that one more cycle of fresh and frozen is all they can afford so the pressure is really on...... x

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emu2016 in reply to Lou290901

Even though I know some women’s journey has been longer it doesn’t reassure me that I’m ok now. Big hugs to you x

We felt like this too, I was never that excited in the first place (too much of a pessimist) and now, on our third round with two natural miscarriages in the bag too, my strongest emotion is probably resentment that we are still here, still doing this. And even that’s not a very strong feeling. Mostly I feel tired but determined to get through it. I expect the emotional stress will turn back on once I get to EC though.

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emu2016 in reply to Lizzielizzielizzie

Resentment! Yes! x

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Maikai

Feel exactly the same. Start noristherone on the 27th and injections on jan 15th. Don’t feel much of anything about it.

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emu2016 in reply to Maikai

How you doing honey? x

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Maikai in reply to emu2016

Aye - getting on. Just taking it one day at a time. Not getting overly excited because I know the hell i have to go through between now and peeing on a stick so there’s that. Trying to stay healthy and get in as good a shape as possible for the start of everything. Baseline scan on the 14th feb and then take it from there - time will tell. Just much more detached than i was last time. It is what it is - life will do what it wants haha

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Dunla

Oh no. The wallets and purses definitely take a good bashing at these appointments, doesn’t help that it’s post Christmas and we’re all feeling the pinch!

I felt a bit blasé for some of my initial appointments this time round but now that it’s getting closer to embryo transfer I’m starting to feel the pressure more. It suddenly feels incredibly real.

Very best of luck for your upcoming treatment. Looking forward to hearing how things are going for you xx

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emu2016 in reply to Dunla

Here’s hoping it gets better x

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AllWeNeedIsluv

Just wanted to wish you luck and hope you get your rainbow baby at, the end of, this 💗💗🤗😘

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emu2016 in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv

Thank you! So lovely to hear your news x

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AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to emu2016

Thank you hun 💗🤗😘

Aww...we are on cycle number 7 and thousands later an angel from round 4 (we had a late mc at 17.5 weeks 2016) and nothing else following 2 x FET early last year.

Was about to start number and last lucky 7 and there it was a small fibroid on my lining so pause freeze stop.... book a private op for hysteroscopy abroad.... find 1600 plus flight accommodation and spending money....

Am I questioning everything..yup, do I want to just through in the towe...yup am I scared of the negative...yup, do I get horrible moments when I see happy posts and wish it was me.... yup,am I a bar person.... NOPE

We are bloody WARRIORS

HERES HOPING IN 2018 😘

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emu2016 in reply to

Cycle 7. See! I barely understand how you must feel at this stage and I’m moaning about feeling meh now! Good luck honey. The cost is a pain! x

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DC13

Totally agree with you my dear.

Starting our mock cycle soon and feel meeeee. I think it is because we have been through it so much.

Maybe we will feel different when we get onto actual activities. Im not convinced.

I've told my husband that this is it re treatment in 2018. This will be our 6th year and I am so done with it. No more after 2018. Time to move on if that what is what we have to do.

When are you anticipating a transfer? Are you DE?

Take care

xx

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emu2016 in reply to DC13

Yep. DE. Probs in May. We’ll see. Some decisions incoming tonight x

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Cinderella5

Im starting to feel like this too! Not because I dont want it so much but I think I just dont want to get my hopes up that this can work as so far it bloody well hasnt! I think Mr Emu's "Meh" feeling is spot on for me too!! Laughing at the tight Northerner thing......I'm Scottish, surely doesnt get much worse than that! Ha ha ha xx

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emu2016 in reply to Cinderella5

Must be glued wallets in Scotland! ;) x

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Cinderella5 in reply to emu2016

Ha ha ha Hubby's English so keeps me right! 😂xx

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TTCs

Just wanted to wish u and ur hubby the best of luck!! I'm sure as some of the other ladies have suggested it's self preservation! To let yourself get excited is allowing yourself to be vulnerable the possibility of coming crashing back down & u know u dont want to do that, u want to remain strong, so you're just not climbing so high this time. You are so brave! I will cross everything for you! I hope this is "the one" for u! 💕 xxx

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emu2016 in reply to TTCs

Thank you x

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Tugsgirl

I feel EXACTLY like this 😞 I just want to get it over and done with.

Good luck with your next cycle xx

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emu2016 in reply to Tugsgirl

You too. Fingers crossed for you xx

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Aleelilook

Oh god I totally feel like this!! It’s a sodding marathon each round, and I suppose one has to psych oneself up for another round, and that is bloody exhausting in itself!

Good luck with this round sweets, fingers crossed and all that jazz xxx

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emu2016 in reply to Aleelilook

A marathon! Yes! x

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ch319

Hey just wanted to wish you all the best. I’ll be thinking f you xx

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Lisamarie4583

Hi just wanted to wish u all the best for your coming up cycle good luck hope all goes well xxx

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