Hi everyone,
I’m here because other than my husband, I really don’t have anyone to talk to about all this. Im so so lonely and have isolated myself from pretty much every social situation that could possible trigger anxiety and tears. Christmas has been hard. More pregnancy announcements - even from a friend who has opted for a sperm donor and it’s worked! Im happy for her and others but it’s always underpinned with horrible jealously, anger, sadness. A few friends have been incredibly supportive and listen when I have had a few emotional wobbles in trying to get pregnant but they can’t fully understand how it is and I feel like a real downer to go on about it all the time! . My family and my husbands really don’t know how to talk to us about it and avoid doing so. Pretending to be happy around them is exhausting. We’ve been trying for 2 years, I’m now 34 and feeling that panic of edging towards “the fertility cliff edge” of 35. We were originally told I had a very low AMH and was devestated and to prepare ourselves for fertility treatment to not work for us. Only to be told a few weeks later there had been a mistake and new tests showed nothing medically wrong! I still feel something in me is broken and the only thing that will fix it is to become pregnant. It consumes everything. Effects our lives everyday. We start the IVF journey 8th Jan. new tests to be done and then all the fun with that. Lots of dildo condom camera etc. Goodbye dignity! Guess I’m hoping someone on here might want to share this next bit with me? Anyone else about to start IVF? Maybe you are out there too, thinking you’re alone.
