Another month of disappointment

[Positive2022]

Hi to everyone, hope you're all having a lovely weekend! Another month gone and another BFN. Feeling so sad. Why? I've never even seen a BFP in the whole time we've been TTC. Everywhere I turn it seems people are announcing their pregnancy and we have to hear 'it only happened on our first try' or 'we thought it would take at least a year but it happened straight away'. My blood tests have shown that my progesterone is low and I am awaiting an ultrasound and HSG. Our Consultant said that she feels any embryo conceived is not getting a chance to 'stick'. Our Consultant even said to us there is nothing more we can do to help ourselves as we are active, eat well, live a healthy lifestyle, have never smoked, do not drink and have a healthy BMI. All we can do is keep waiting for more tests and treatment. What makes me feel worse is the fact that each month the disappointnent is getting harder and harder on both my husband and I. I really don't understand why my body is failing us? Sorry for the rant, you're all so strong and the support on here so amazing, I had to get things off my chest. BIG hugs to you all xxx

[AllWeNeedIsluv]

Awwwww hun.

I'm so sorry your feeling like this it really does take it's toll in us, especially when we think it should be so easy for nature to take it's course.

The positives are your consultant has got the ball rolling and low progesterone is a major in ttc so once that's sorted and hopefully you don't have any other problems you would be able to conceive , although if you do they will be able to advice you what's best and if they can help you with any meds it would be great. I know it's hard hun but the long difficult journey to get something we so want very much is worth it and there is light at the end of the tunnel however dark it may seem now. Wish you all the best hun and try keep positive once you've got these tests done you'll be one step closer to getting your precious baby 💗🤗😘

[Positive2022 in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

Thank you lovely, means so much to chat to someone who truly understands the emotional rollercoaster one goes through on this journey. Hope you're ok? We are trying to keep ourselves busy to take our minds off things but occasionally it gets to you doesn't it!?! Big hugs ❤ xxx

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to Positive2022]

Of course it does because it's the most thing you want so bad but it's not happening. It's stressful. Just remember yo keep talking to one another. Have fun with life try not to let it take over. Which it seems your doing by keeping busy. Bless you.

I'm not too bad hun just real nervous iv got my second scan tomorrow and after my first no heartbeat just sac and measuring few days smaller than lmp date just messing with my brain tomorrow can't come quick enough. Big hugs right back at you. Keep strong hun and good luck on your tests let me know how you get on 💗🤗😘

[Positive2022 in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

Bless you hun, such lovely words of advice. I can't imagine how you must be feeling right now, I really hope everything goes ok for you tomorrow. I'll be thinking of you. Let me know how you get on also. It's so good to chat ❤ xxx

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to Positive2022]

Thank you. I will do hun

If ever you want to chat just pm me hun no problem. Keep your chin up hun 💗🤗😘

[Positive2022 in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

Thank you lovely, likewise. My inbox I'd always open if you need a chat xxx

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to Positive2022]

💗🤗😘

[E_05]

I really feel for you and totally understand the disappointments each months being. As for pregnancy announcements and the ‘it just happened’ comments they make my blood boil 😤 I hope you get your ultra sound soon as it’ll be one step closer. Keep positive if you can xx

[Positive2022 in reply to E_05]

Thank you lovely. I get cross that my body won't do what it's suppose to do, especially when according to the docs we can't do anything more then we're already doing without medical assistance. How are you doing hun?? Hope things are feeling a little easier for you? Sending you BIG hugs ❤ Xxx

[E_05 in reply to Positive2022]

I know that feeling all to well, I go through feeling angry my body won’t get me pregnant then that it won’t keep my babies alive it’s so hard but your doing everything you possibly can just remember that. I’m up and down atm think the reality of everything we’ve been through has finally hit xx

[Positive2022 in reply to E_05]

Bless you my lovely, I can't even imagine how hard things must be for you right now. It's such a difficult time and you must give yourself time to grieve. You are such a strong person for what you've been through and for supporting others. If you ever need to talk, feel free to message me any time. I am a good listener xxx

[E_05 in reply to Positive2022]

Thank you so much, same to you if you need to talk 🙂 it’s a tough journey made a little easier talking to people who truly understand xx

[Positive2022 in reply to E_05]

Thanks lovely, you're so right xxx❤

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it bloody stinks doesn't it when you put loads of effort into things only to have it result in nothing!

[Positive2022 in reply to Hidden]

Totally agree. So disheartening isn't it?!? I don't think anyone can fully understand the ups and downs we go through unless they have been through the same thing xxx

[CJL1234]

I feel the same way. You are definitely not alone. I've had 9 transfers and I thought, surely it's my turn now but I stayed to bleed again last night. It was a real big blow to us but we've reset and focused again. It's a numbers game and the only thing in our control is to try again. It feels lonely though and it does seem easier for everyone else but statistically 1 in 5 are in the same boat as us.

Hang in there.