Medical management tomorrow 😢

[E_05]

So tomorrow I go into hospital for the day to have the tablets, feeling pretty nervous now. They’ve said there’s a chance we’ll see baby and in a way I want to. This could be our only chance to ever see our baby as I’m not sure how many more cycles I can put myself through.

My consultant has asked for some of the placenta to be sent off for testing which I also have mixed emotions about as I want some answers to explain why but am so scared something will come back that means I can’t carry children.

Why is life so unfair 😢💔

[misswinky34]

I'm sorry hun ☹ some people choose to bring the baby home? I didn't get a choice when i had medical management and i wish i had done because i would have said goodbye to him/her in my own way. I'm so sorry for your loss ❤👭 xxx

[E_05 in reply to misswinky34]

Thank you and so sorry for what you’ve been through to. We’ve decided to have a service this year to say goodbye properly as last year we weren’t given the option and like you it’s one thing I wish I’d done xx

[kumkums]

So sorry to hear this. It's very painful. At my 7 weeks scan I was told they couldn't find a baby but a perfectly formed sac. HCG has been increasing, I went back last week, still same thing, I have been asked to come next week to see if things have improved or not. It's been a very stressful week for me, including using progynova and cyclogest when you don't know what's going on.

So i just want you to know that my heart goes out to you as I can relate with what you are going through and I pray you have your baby or babies very soon.

[E_05 in reply to kumkums]

Thank you, sorry to hear all you’ve been going through. I was in a similar position last year with a healthy sac but no baby unfortunately it didn’t end well. I really hope next week brings good news for you, il keep my fingers crossed!

[Tugsgirl]

Thinking of you. You can do this xx

[E_05 in reply to Tugsgirl]

Thank you xx

[DianeArnold Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK]

Hi E_05. Just wanted to say we are with you here. Going to be a traumatic day for you, and I do hope all goes as easily as it possibly can for you. Don't know what else to say to you, except that I do know how you feel. I shall be thinking of you first thing. Gentle hugs. Diane xx

[E_05 in reply to DianeArnold]

Thank you Diane x

[Poppy16]

Really sorry again for your loss. Thinking about you tomorrow and also praying for you. This is such a difficult time for you. Sending you big hugs. Xo

[E_05 in reply to Poppy16]

Thank you xx

[Fredaflintstone]

Such a difficult time you are going through. Our thoughts are with you.

It’s good you can see the baby if you want to. Though that will be tough. But it will help you to say goodbye.

It would possibly be good to have a check of your placenta - will that potentially show something is wrong but which can be fixed? If so, that would be worth knowing? But I know it’s scary.

Here if you want to talk or scream xxx

[E_05 in reply to Fredaflintstone]

Thank you, your definitely right and I want to see our baby I think I worry more it might not possible. I’m so grateful my consultant as asked for tests as I know it’s not the ‘norm’ and if it can prevent any future heartache it’s worth it just like you say very scary xx

[Hidden]

I'm sorry. Take good care of yourselves tomorrow. I hope you get some answers soon. xx

[E_05 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you xx

[Cinderella5]

Will be thinking of you!xx

[E_05 in reply to Cinderella5]

Thank you xx

[louisear]

there are no words but just want to say thinking of you. I went through it in June so know how you feel. We saw our baby although I appreciate it's a very personal choice. We had no offer of investigation of the placenta but would've said yes if offered. Not knowing is worse than knowing in my opinion and it's not forced to be bad news. Hope it goes as smoothly as it can xx

[E_05 in reply to louisear]

Thank you, I to want to see our baby I think I need to. Definitely your right about the not knowing, I’m really grateful my consultant has asked for tests and I know it’s not the ‘norm’ xx

[Dream32]

I'll be thinking of you, I hope that they can find some answers for you so one day your dreams come true. Be kind to yourself. X

[E_05 in reply to Dream32]

Thank you x

[Mircle2]

Thinking of you hun sending you all my love & loads of hugs ❤😗xxx

[E_05 in reply to Mircle2]

Thank you x

[7AVA]

I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow - sending love and hope for the future at this very sad time. Xxxx

[E_05 in reply to 7AVA]

Thank you, I hope Im able to get some answers for the future xx

[Aleelilook]

My thoughts are with you xxxxxx

[E_05 in reply to Aleelilook]

Thank you xx

[Loopielu]

Thinking of you and sending love. xx

[E_05 in reply to Loopielu]

Thank you xx

[Leo2017]

So sorry, thinking of you at this tough tough time!! 💔xx

[E_05 in reply to Leo2017]

Thank you xx

[C_L_A_I_R_E]

Oh Hun I feel for you. I have started my medical management, it's ok at the mo. Manageable. I asked about testing but they said they wouldn't do that. I understand your feelings on it as hubby wwas against it but I was for it. His thought was next time it's a new egg and new sperm so different outcome. Let's hope. If you need to talk I'm always here. Spending the weekend on sofa in pjs.

[E_05 in reply to C_L_A_I_R_E]

Hope you doing as okay as you can be. They wouldn’t do any testing last year so I am grateful this year they are. Sounds a good idea for the weekend, lots of rest and eat/drink what you want x

[romaluna2015]

I’m thinking of you xx

[_MrsC]

Oh Hun. I'm so sorry to see this. What an awful time for you. I am praying for you and hope the day is as bearable as possible. Sending you a huge hug. xxx

[Tugsgirl]

Hey. How are you getting on lovely? Hope you’re being well looked after xx

[E_05 in reply to Tugsgirl]

Thank you, just got to hospital so far there all lovely xx

[Tugsgirl in reply to E_05]

It makes all the difference to be treated well.. I’ll be thinking of you xx

[Penders]

I hope all goes well tomorrow, will be thinking of you. Big hugs xx

[Lynnr54]

Will be thinking of you tomorrow and hope it goes as well as it can. Re the testing, I can understand why you’d have mixed emotions. If it were me I’d want it done so I could possibly find a reason. If it’s not fixable then it’s devastating but at least you’d know so you could start dealing with it rather than go through the same heartbreak again in future x

[Hidden]

Thinking of you xxx

[Sunshine09]

Thinking of you 💔💋💋

[AllWeNeedIsluv]

So so sorry hun. It's a real tough journey and none of it seems to get easier even when we get that bfp. I hope the answers you get reassure you some how. At least their doing something to find out why this may have happened not many of us get that. Doesn't make it any easier though I get that. Thinking of you hun through this really tough time. Remember we're all here for you. Lots of love and hugs hun. 💗🤗😘

[Kyell2]

It is all so unfair!

I hope tomorrow goes as well as it can and I’ll be thinking about you xx

[kt_11]

Hope everything goes as comfortably as it can do. Will be thinking of you x

[Hidden]

Thinking of you x

[Hidden]

I’d go with dr advice xxx it be nice to know the answers xxx it put your mind at rest also x

[Leesara]

Be thinking of you this morning/today x

[Amanda86]

😘😘 thinking of you today xxx

[Hidden]

Thinking of you xxx

[Hidden]

So sorry. Thinking of you xx

[Beckyboo1985]

I'm so so sorry darling.. Nothing I or anyone can say will make you feel better, but we are all here for you if you need us. Sending you so much love ❤️ xxxxxx

[Lizzielizzielizzie]

Thinking of you today x

[Hidden]

life's bloody shit isnt it? Im sorry to hear that's happened and it all feels so damned unfair that's its easy for others and not you. sometimes its just a case of having been very very unlucky and no ones to blame but it doesn't make it easier to take when lucky people complain about being pregnant when you sadly lost out.

[AllWeNeedIsluv]

Thinking of you hun. Lots of love and hugs 💗🤗😘

[E_05 in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

Thank you, on the 2nd lot of tablets and still nothings happened 😢

[AllWeNeedIsluv]

No pain or anything? Xx bless ya hopefully will happen soon bless ya hun 😔💗😘

[E_05 in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

A bit of back pain but no real cramping, this waiting is the worst as I know it’s got to happen..feel like my bodies letting me down again x

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to E_05]

Awwww hun the worst feeling ever. Sending you a big gentle hug and hoping things will happen soon for you lovely lady. Are you At hospital all day? 💗💗😘

[E_05 in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

Yeah, we’re in a side room and they are being really nice which is a bonus. Not really sure what happens if baby doesn’t come and last year I started bleeding after the first lot xx

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to E_05]

They may leave it a bit longer and give you some more. If tour getting anxious about what happens if bubu doesn't come ask them your options hun. The more you have control of will help in a way. Next time they come in ask them I'm happy they're been nice that's what you need nice people around you. 💗💗😘

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

Your I meant it won't let me edit x

[E_05 in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

That’s true think il do that next time they come in as your right the not knowing is hard xx

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to E_05]

Let us know hun. Hope things start to progress soon. Sorry I had a nap xx

[E_05 in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

Don’t blame you, hope everything went well for your apt yesterday. I will do xx

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to E_05]

Oh thanks thats a long story I updated my post yesterday evening I replied half way down saying what happened. Thinking of you I'll keep checking for updates 💗💗😘

[Leesara]

Hope today was as ok as it could be for you x

[E_05 in reply to Leesara]

Still in hospital just had 3rd lot of tablets as nothing is happening 😢 think it’s gona be a long night for us xx

[7AVA in reply to E_05]

Thinking of you E_05 xxx

[E_05 in reply to 7AVA]

Thank you xx

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to E_05]

What have they said if nothing happens are they going to keep you in. Bless ya. It's been a really long day for yous xx

[E_05 in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

Thank you all, they’ve said if nothing happens after this lot they’ll decide whether to let me go through the night and then start again tomorrow or just give me more tablets. Either way we’ll be here till tomorrow now xx

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to E_05]

Awwww hun. Bless you have you been able to eat a little and drink xx

[E_05 in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

Yeah haven’t felt that hungry but they said I can eat and drink as normal xx

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to E_05]

Bless ya. Just sending you a big hug 💗🤗😘

[Lizzielizzielizzie in reply to E_05]

You poor thing.

[Hidden in reply to E_05]

Thinking of you xx

[Leesara in reply to E_05]

Just try your best to rest as much as you can and take care and be kind to yourself x

[NMP1026]

Awe hun. I'm thinking of you. Life is so unfair xx