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Day before otd

So I have been here before in fact this is my 3rd fresh et in less than a year. While I lie here in bed with my breakfast lovingly made by my dh who always takes such good care of me and with my furbaby baby at my feet I feel a strange sense of deja vu. I know when I start a cycle I am so desperate to get to this point however when I finally get here I don't want otd to arrive. This is always the closest I have felt to being pregnant and I know tomorrow that could be the end of my dh kissing my tummy, the end of our hopes and dreams and again I have to try to pick myself up from the floor. I know this has been our best cycle yet and I feel grateful we were able to pay for this round however I know how cruel and unexplainable this whole process can be. I want to be optimistic but I am filled with dread.dread that my body has failed me again and that I cannot seem to give my dh what I thought would have been so easy and so natural. As we approach our 3rd wedding anniversary I feel so sad not happy sad that our first three years of marriage have been consumed by this. I cannot bear to look at my wedding photos as I just see such hope and happiness that as I lie here seems so long ago and so long gone. I know i sound like a sad old 3rd timer but I guess as not only our 3rd wedding anniversary but also a significant birthday looms I just so want this to be our time as my body and my head is exhausted. Today I am going to hold onto my tiny last bit of hope and dream that this time tomorrow I see two lines for the first time ever. Thank you all for all your ongoing support as always..think today may involve cake xxxxx

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Aw it's like you are writing this about me my lovely. Enjoy your day and well done for getting here.

Good luck πŸ˜‰ xxx

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Just wanted to wish you all the luck in the world for tomorrow πŸ€πŸ€

Hoping that you get the best birthday and anniversary gift ever with a BFP tomorrow xx

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I really hope that it is now your time to enjoy what we all long for. I literally have everything crossed for you that tomorrow you will see those two lines you deserve xxxx

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Really hope this is your time. Good luck for tomorrow x

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Good luck for tomorrow πŸ€ x x

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I really hope it's your time tomorrow xx

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Wishing you all the luck in the world for tomorrow πŸ€ πŸ€πŸ€ x x

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Fingers crossed this is your time and praying to see that BFP tomorrow from you xx

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Sending you big hugs, i know what you mean, when the day is here it's like you really don't want it to arrive as then you will know. I have everything crossed that this is your time Hun🀞🀞🀞.

We share a similar journey, I have just celebrated our 3rd wedding anniversary and when I look back on our 3 years it's been filled with round after round of mentally and financially crippling IVF. But, and there's always a bit :-) we do it as we have hope and believe that one day it will be our turn. I hope this is your turn sweetie xxx

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Thanks so much hun...how are you doing after everything you recently went through?I love my dh looking after me but desperate there for him to go to work so I could just have a good old cry😒😒xx

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I'm ok, surprisingly. The chemical pregnancy result has actually made me so much more positive than before. It's given me a glimmer of hope that wasn't there before. Even my clinic said to me that this was good news as my body does actually do what it should. We'll sort of. It's a step further than we have been before. I'm taking this cycle off and we are going again for another FET end of this month. We have 2 left, so praying that this happens for us this time πŸ™Œ. I think that if this next one doesn't take I will have more tests done before we move on to our final embie. Xx

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All sounding more positive then xxx

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Yes but let's focus all our positive energies on your result tomorrow πŸ™Œ. I'll be thinking of you xx

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Wishing you the very best of luck for tomorrow!! So hope you get your positive!! 🀞🏻xx

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Wishing you all the luck in the world for tomorrow. Hope today is not too long for you, thinking of you. Xxx

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Thanks Mrs yeah feels like it should be night time already..going to do some ivf mindfulness to connect with my embryo for the last time xxx

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I've got everything crossed for you! I hope you had baby dust on your cornflakes this morn βœ¨πŸ˜ƒβœ¨

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Damn I didn't seem to have run out of baby dustπŸ˜‰xxx

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Wishing you so much luck for tomorrow, really hope this is your time! I know exactly what you mean about looking back on your years of marriage but just think this cruel journey has made you both the couple you are today xx

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Wishing you all the luck for tomorrow πŸ€

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Aww my darlingπŸ˜™ sending you a big hug! I really really really hope tomorrow is good news! You've done everything you can do and given it your best.

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Thanks hun..love you dog xxxx

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My heart aches for you reading this and although my first round i can in some ways relate. Its OTD tomorrow for me also and our anniversary in October. 5 years consumed by infertility.

Best of luck and i will be thinking of you tomorrow also. I hope we can share long awaited good news xxx

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Good luck for tomorrow xx

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Be thinking of you too tomorrow. .here's hoping it is both our time xxx

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Xxxxx

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I really, really hope that tomorrow is your time and that all the changes you made this cycle are just want you needed to make your baby dreams come true!

You have done so well to not test early, and cake sounds like a great plan, especially on a horrible rainy day like today xx

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Thanks hun I think it may even be a double cake kind of day πŸŽ‚πŸŽ‚πŸŽ‚πŸŽ‚xxx

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Oh Vic, I know what you mean about the last few years and beginning of your marriage being taken over by treatment....its pretty crappy, not to mention the big birthday looming! I havent ever gotten to test day without bleeding so havent really had the big agonising 2 week wait or doing the test hoping that its positive, must be so nerve racking! Just want to wish you all the best and enjoy that cake today. I will be thinking about you tomorrow, really hoping you get a good result....you deserve it!!xx

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Thanks so much..means so much from you...sending hugs your way xx

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Right back at you lovely!xx

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I mirror all your feelings and emotions! My test date is tomorrow as well! 🀞🏻for the two of us! πŸ€β€οΈπŸ€β€οΈπŸ€β€οΈ

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OK so three is a lucky number right??? As Elou81 is testing tomorrow too...would that be a hat trick????πŸŽ©πŸŽ©πŸŽ©πŸŽ©πŸ‘’πŸ‘’πŸ‘’πŸ‘’πŸ‘’πŸŽ“πŸŽ“πŸŽ“πŸŽ“πŸŽ“πŸ‘‘πŸ‘‘πŸ‘‘πŸ‘‘all the head gear emojis I could find..wishing you so much luck for tomπŸ€πŸ€πŸ€I nearly tested today but wanted to remain hopeful for another day xxx

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Thought about testing too but decided i'm going to whilst waiting for the call. Would have to see it also to believe it if positive. We're in for a long day and sleepless night i feel ladies! I have to go between 8-10, so 8 on the dot!!! Don't know how long it is before they call you with result though. How about you two? Xx

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Mines a pee test and I ring it in.

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Have you decided on a time?

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No not yet but I don't think I can face it. Probably pee in a pot and get hubby to check 😐🀞🏻

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Well which ever way you choose to do it i hope its a positive result. How are you feeling today?

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I feel so emotional and feeling sick 🀒 but this is because I'm anxious and I hardly slept. Been awake since 3am.

How are you feeling?

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Better than yesterday thanks. I sobbed for hours. Was just pleased my husband was at work. Its not that long since he lost his mother and his father has been ill recently. He has had so much to contendwith. Didn't want to put any more onto him. Had the occasional stitch but no other symptoms. You? Loss of apetite but like you not been sleeping and anxious x

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Any 'symptoms' I've had seem to be gone now. So that worries me but I guess it's just the meds anyway. Just so emotional today. But I guess a good sob can help. 😒

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Very true x

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I been crying a lot last two days and exhausted..needing afternoon naps which is never a bad thing and eating cake like it's a main meal these days😯we have to take a pee sample to hospital at 10 am tomorrow but going to do home test here first before hospital..yikes not long now xxxx

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We're off out for carvery. Just to get out the house really. I might follow suit and get desert too. I would do the same. First response are meant to be really good. Best of luck hun xxxxc

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Good luck for tomorrow xx

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Well it's my 2nd cycle but yes fingers crossed all three of us get βž•

I know what you mean about having one more day but I know that's one more day of google πŸ™ˆ

Hubby has tomorrow off so we can spend the day together,plan a nice day what ever the outcome 🏑

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Yeah we are both off tomorrow too although I can see us headed to the pub if the outcome is negative xxx

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Good luck for tomorrow. Got everything crossed for you all. Ive gone passed the big birthday mark and we're at 3.5 years post wedding - hoping our time is also coming soon. Hoping tomorrow's a super happy day for you all xx

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Well written and very heartfelt! Will be thinking of you and hoping for the best of outcomes tomorrow xx

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If all else fails and we don't become mothers I think most of us on here could easily become authors. .lol xxx

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Fingers crossed tightly for you tomorrow xx

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Good luck! 🀞

I know exactly how you feel. It's our second anniversary tomorrow and next week is a big birthday for me. I also feel like since our wedding our lives have been consumed by negativity and infertility, wasted years. I assumed I'd have a little family by now but I feel nothing but disappointment.

Hopefully things will turn around for us all soon x

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I hope so...am rooting for you too xx

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Awwww hun. My eyes filled up reading your post. I soooooo wish you the very best for tomorrow. Good luck hun really hope it's your time πŸ’—πŸ€—πŸ˜˜

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Awww sorry hun..didn't mean to upset. .just this damn process..am so fed up with it now xxx

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Don't be sorry I'm such an emotional person anyway. Bless ya wish you the best for tomorrow hun xxx

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Good luck for tomorrow...πŸ€πŸ€πŸ€

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Good luck test day Hun xx

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Wishing you all the luck in the world πŸ€

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Hi vic keeping everything crossed for you 3rd time lucky xxx

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Really hope you get a BFP tomorrow. Wishing you lots of baby luck.

xxx

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I do so hope it's third time lucky for you x

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Wishing you so so so much luck! Xx

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Good luck sweetie!! Hope you receive your most deserved happiness tomorrow.

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Good luck this morning vic77 πŸ€πŸ€žπŸΌπŸ˜˜

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Good luck am thinking of you xxx

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