Struggling

Anyone else dreading this weekend? I want to shut myself away and hide from everyone and everything.

I'm so scared I'll never be a mum. 😢

[Laura3101]

Yes Im with you on that one! I've organised to keep myself busy, me and my fiancée are going out tonight & then I've arranged to see my mum and nana tomorrow to try keep my brain occupied, Im still keeping everything positive that one day I'll be a mum & I so hope that all the ladies struggling including yourself get that dream also 💫💫 x

[Hidden in reply to Laura3101]

Good for you. You sound very positive! I'm not there yet but wish I will be one day. X

[Nesfin]

Oh hun I know how you feel.. I've shut myself away already for years from these forced celebrations, they cut down deep. Just plan something nice for yourself, keep away from the mainstream and online and try to focus on feeling good about yourself. You'll be a mum one day, but until then.. you need to take care and pamper yourself xoxo

[baby2016]

Yeah I'm dreading it too. Especially with being on the 2ww. My mum suffers with memory issues and as much as I love her and have told her in previous years she never understands or thinks about how I feel on that day. In a better place than last year though as was recovering from having my tubes out and spent all last Mother's Day crying! This time we're all going for a joint family curry with both mums but I know I'm going to find it hard, and sometimes just wished my family knew how hard this day is for people like ourselves. But instead we either have to put on the fake smiles or get accused of being moody and irrational. I'd rather just hibernate and do nothing, and wish I could but personal circumstances won't allow, along with the guilt of not seeing my own mum, even if she winds me up for not understanding or even just giving me the big hug that deep down I need. Xx

[Rosalietea]

Yeah I'm finding this weekend so impossibly hard. You are totally not alone. I think most of us will find it challenging in some way. Last year I stood in a card shop choosing a card and burst into tears. That was after my first BFN. This year I've got two BFN behind me and no 3rd cycle planned although we do plan on having one more go. I'm working today (4th 9hr Shift at a children's intensive care) and off to see my family to celebrate with my Mum tomorrow. TBH I'd rather hide away too but like baby2016 the guilt of not partaking is making me go despite the fact it's a 3hr round trip. To top it all I found out my ex husband (who already has two girls) is getting married today.

Thinking of all of us in this situation, feeling alone and sad. We are not alone and it is very sad but tomorrow is just another day and it'll be over and forgotten as quickly as today.

Hugs to all x

[baby2016 in reply to Rosalietea]

Rosalietea just wanted to send you a big hug 😘 What a crap weekend for you, but at the same time what an amazing job you do 😊 keep similing even when it's hard too xxx

[Rosalietea in reply to baby2016]

Thanks baby2016 x

[Janer85]

I totally understand, wish I dint have to go to work, as one of the girls told me last night she was pregnant 😢 Cried all the way home. Fingers crossed it be our time soon xx

[Katybetter]

Oh my gosh. I've been crying all morning. I'm dreading tomorrow. I'm almost frightened of tomorrow! I'm not really coping at all tbh. It's nice to know other people understand. I feel like such a minority!

[Hidden in reply to Katybetter]

You most definitely are not alone. X

[Fatooli28]

We've all been there... positivity and mind over matter missy! You can do this...don't let your brain make your body give up....its the worst thing you could do... live and breathe 🙌🏼🔮❤️🤗🍀🍀🍀we are all here for you 💋💕🦄🦄🦄🦄🦄🦄🦄🦄🦄🦄🦄🦄🦄

[Liverbird10]

You are so not alone I've been dreading it all week

[Leesalou]

I am more so that I'm going to a family meal to celebrate for my mum and nan, can't get out of it. So tomorrow I'll be hiding behind a smile, but I try and stay positive that it be my turn one day.

Don't think it helps that lose hour sleep either going to beba long day tomorrow xx

[hannahi]

Have to admit listening to the mothers day requests on the radio this morn is not making it any easier for me...gonna have to turn this off I think! Big hugs to everyone....I say treat yourselves today & steer clear of the media. & try to appreciate the family you do have. I'm going out for a long walk in the sunshine this morn. Take care of yourselves today everyone xx

[Twinkle84]

Hi Hellsbells36 , you are not alone , recently I had BFN and it was very upsetting, crying help me on that day , next day I start focusing on positive side .I believe you have frozen embryos stored safely and think ; they are waiting for you , we are all in this journey we have to be positive otherwise it's going to be so hard to take , please be kind to your body , sending you sunshine ☀️

[72cloud9]

I feel ya!! I wasn't expecting it but burst in2 tears sat eve & sun morning!! Really got to me this year!! Can only hope that one day it'll be us xxx

[KiraJean]

Hellbells, how are you doing today? It is a lovely sunny day today and I hope you get the chance to see some of the blue sky and feel a little bit better xx

[MommaBear16]

Sending love hellsbells. I cried and cried on Saturday night. By Sunday I think I was just too drained to be upset. I focused on my Mam who is amazing and tried not to think much. Easier said than done. Hope you're as well as can be expected at the moment x x x

[Hidden in reply to MommaBear16]

Thank you. Sunday I just shut myself away coz it's what I needed. I've managed to get out the last couple of days.

It feels like a constant dark cloud over me at the moment.

Hope you're doing okay x