Think my fourth cycle has failed 😭

Hi ladies congrats to those who've recently had babies and those who have fallen pregnant - and to all those who haven't here's to 2017 bringing you a big fat positive ☺️

I tried so hard this month and still it's the same result. I thought this month I had a chance as my boobs grew and I had bouts of nausea.

But no I saw a tiny bit of pink discharge this morning. I always get spotting before my period. To say I'm deveated is an total understatement. I am doing everything right and still I can't pregnant no matter what I do. I don't what I have to do to have a baby. Why is it so bloody hard? Been ttc 5 years 5 month and not one positive test. Yet everyone around me can fall at a drop of a hat. I can't catch a lucky break.

I don't know anymore on my 4th cycle of clomid and had hoped I'd fallen by now. I'm on 100mg a day.

My clinic don't monitor me and have left me to it. I don't even know if it is working and that really plays in my head.

I feel like phoning my clinic but I don't know what to say-I am paranoid? I might ask to book an appointment with our consultant to see him in 2/3 months time as he wanted to see us if the clomid hadn't been successful.

Should the clinic change my dose? Or have I been just unlucky?

Thanks

X

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  • So sorry you're feeling like this, it's such a long drawn out process, it's definitely a constant rollercoaster of emotions! Hoping and praying for you in 2017! X

  • Thank you x

  • I would phone them, are they not scanning and monitoring you at all? I was prescribed clomide, but I was given numbers to phone on certain days so that they could monitor how my body was responding (by scan). Good luck, I know how you feel, I've been trying 5 years, had one natural pregnancy which ended in miscarriage. Always made worse when your siblings and friends find it all a breeze! X

  • Thank you for the reply.

    They have never scanned once or given me a blood test.

    I think I will call -I'm not the sort of person who makes a fuss but I think with only two chances left I need to act.

    Perhaps something positive can come from this-if I can get some good news from the clinic perhaps it'll soften the blow when I tell my husband again I'm not pregnant 😭

    Thank you for making me feel like I'm not just being paranoid.

    All the best to you.

    X

  • Hello Jess

    Yes the clinic should increase the dosage now.. the clinic should be doing blood tests to find out if your ovulating.. that is where the doctor I was under went wrong and I went mad at them it was the only way for me to move forward. No your not paranoid your upset and on a long and hard journey which often leaves you feeling depressed and anxious.. Book an appointment with your specialist as soon as you can .. let them know your unhappy with the protocol of not having any ovulation confirmed.. as you can't really move forward with the chlomid until they know if it is working. Are you taking pre pregnancy vitamins at all ? .. they can sometimes help to aid a pregnancy .. I don't trust the home ovulation tests I didn't bother with them for a reason of if it gave false reading..

    I'm here for you feel free to keep in contact xx

  • Thanks lovely 😊

    I just called and I said I didn't think it was working. I told her about my symptoms-bleeding between cycle and the cramping I was getting with it and the nausea I have experienced since middle of my cycle. She then asked me if I was sure I wasn't pregnant -I said no chance as I have spotting today. Her opinion was it sounded like pregnancy symptoms-I thought you are hilarious my friend! I have had to agree to test-I will do it tomorrow-I know it'll. be negative πŸ‘Ž But she did say once that was confirmed my consultant will consider changing the dose. Can you imagine if it was positive how silly I'd look πŸ‘€ Having seen the spotting I know there is not a chance.

    The ovulation tests didn't work for me either-apparently clomid can alter the result of these tests-not that the companies advertise that fact 😑

    I take folic acid, ferrous sulphate as Im anaemic and Cod liver oil to lower my nk levels- which I wish the consultant had agreed to given me steroids for-he will prescribe pregnant but I don't know why he wouldn't issue steroids whilst I'm ttc to give me a better chance. πŸ™„ I'm know I'm medical and I should trust his opinion but sometimes I feel worried. He has been good to us-our last fertility consultant was a nightmare he missed my PCO completely.

    Thanks for the support-very appreciated. You've inspired me to fight back 😘

    How's the pregnancy going? πŸ’•

    X

  • I would ask them to do a pregnancy test for you. And send it off for analysis . Was it a receptionist you spoken to or secretary ? .. ask to speak to the doctor not the secretary or receptionist .. they shouldn't be giving you information like that if they are not trained medical professionals ... don't give up just yet .. πŸ‘ŒπŸ»πŸ˜˜ .. I was told with chloride you when ovulate with it release more than one egg so when fall pregnant it's hard to predict the exact date of conception .

    Don't feel like your pestering the doctors either they should be doing bloods or scans to find out if chlomid is working.. other wise pointless taking it .. stand your ground as chlomid can only be taken for so long xx

    My pregnancy is going okay so far have first midwife on 29th two days after my birthday . 😌 .

  • I started to take pre pregnacare for a month before I fell pregnant for some reason or other I didn't think to take anything until someone I know told me it helped them fall pregnant and they have PCOS . Sounds crude and don't know if it worked.. πŸ™„ But after we had been intimate I was advised put my legs above my head and against the wall .. as I say I don't know if that worked but I did a test on the Monday negative I was gutted and was in a right mood all afternoon .. phoned my mum really upset .. ( your never too old to turn to your mum) πŸ’• My mum calmed me down said it would happen and do a test another day say Friday I did it put it down through thinking it was going to be another disappointment looked at it and couldn't believe it had gone positive I had just tested too early ..

    I'm sure spotting can be chlomids doing xx

  • I talk to my mum. Even tho she hasn't been in this situation she gets it.

    I used cups this month a day well as intercourse as I thought that was worth a go!

    I will get some vitamins to see if that helps-anything is worth a shot.

    Haha the legs above my head-might have to try that! Haha the things we do!!! I can't say anything with the cups and syringes as well sex!!! You just feel desperate at times 😳 X

  • Yes desperation takes over majority of the time xx

  • I will test and see where we go from here. It was the consultants secretary I spoke to- she said that the consultant would need to rule out pregnancy before any changes can be done. She was very nice and was taking it seriously.

    My clinic is 30 miles away and it'd be a pain to go there just get a negative test. At least once the test is over and done I can get some advice from consultant maybe some good can come from this πŸ‘πŸ»

    Happy birthday for the 27th. And all the best with the midwife appointment 😘 X

  • Thank you for the birthday wish. If a long journey to clinic ask them can they contact you via phone to let you know the results. The last gynocology appointment I came out of the room crying and p****** off with the consultant I saw they hadn't done bloods and it had set me back by 3 months.. that's when it all came to a stand off with my husband in the middle of the hospital .. I have never been so ashamed of myself than I was that day πŸ˜” I was just tired ,stressed and at my whits end this journey is so stressful and such a drain xx

  • Sometimes you get to the point where just don't care anymore. I was very matter of fact on the phone-nice but wanting results. These people should know this journey is hard and should not cause any extra stress-you don't need it-don't be ashamed-they should've listened to you before that point. It's their fault. It is such a hard journey all I can tell mystic is one month all this will become worth all the suffering we've endured.

    X

  • Hi chick read your post sweetie I'm sorry I think test tomorrow and if it's a negative call them up and get them to up your dose and get them to monitor you for the last few try's and see if it's working I'm here if you need me Kim xxxx

  • Thanks for the support Kim 😊 I am prepared for a negative test. But maybe something good can come from this 🌈Perhaps a change in dose might be enough to give us our much wanted & needed positive. πŸ‘πŸ»

    Hope you and your family are doing well and all set for Christmas-bet the girls are excited 😊Must be nice to have a little ones to do Christmas things- I hope we have one someday. my son is now 18 and at the moment is out partying every night- lol to be young!

    ❀️

  • I know Jess you deserve this little miracle chick really do can't believe he's 18 yes to be young againπŸ‘ And I really want to support you chick and you never know maybe just a little higher dose could just be the ticket:) yes it's very nice the girls haven't got a clue what's going cuz still only 1 1/2 years old but they know they don't like Santa lol but it's all crazy and fun over her lol but just wanted to show my love chick also thinking me and joe are going to do one more round of ivf next year so will be back on here a lot more but at the moment I want to give you my support πŸ’• Xxxx

  • Hello jess. That is tottaly heart breaking. I have finished my round one of clomid im also on 100mg i test twice and both times bfn but test date was today according to my ovia fertility app. But i havent bothered testing today as i know its going to be the same answer. Af is supposed to be sunday however i have has cm today which is pink towards red so tmi. I know this is nothing but my period as i have been having slight cramps for the past few days. Idid feeel very upset when i test but icome over it by taking time out n going for walks. My dr said i need to forget im trying for a baby nd not to even think about anything and just baby dance. But thats a big ask.ihavent had any symptoms while on clomid except dizziness and cramps but still bfn. Do you still have two more goes jess at the clomid maybe it would be worth it to have a private scan done that will give more info in terms of if follicles r geowing and when they will be released. It sucks u have to pay. I just dont know what happened with me my follicle size was 23mm and we baby danced around that time but stillll no results. Arrrrghhhh. Anyways so for the long essay. Xxxxx

  • Aww sorry to hear that- I'll keep my fingers crossed af doesn't get you πŸ™πŸ» Impossible not to think about it if your a women. I wish there was a switch off button-if you find a way to not think about it too much let me know how!!!

    I contacted my consultants secretary today-and actually she was really nice and I off loaded a bit to her. I said I was worried clomid dose wasn't working- told her all about this cycle- the bleeding and cramping between cycles and the bouts of nausea-to which she asked me if I was sure I wasn't pregnant?! I was a bit surprised 😳 She then said the symptoms I had described sounded like pregnancy ones- and asked me to take a test as the consultant would rule that out before changing dose. I am to take a test tomorrow which I am dreading as I know it'll be a negative πŸ‘ŽπŸ» The spotting hasn't happened since this morning-but I'm sure it's only a matter of time before my period starts urgh. But maybe a change in dose will do the trick-try to look on the positive? And maybe if I lay it on thick they might monitor me so I can at least see the clomid working 😈

    All the best to you - here if you need a chat

    X

  • I've noticed your posts. .and r ember you because l love your picture. But more than that; you are always so lovely to the other women on here. You celebrate and support freely. Always kind and sweet. I just want you to know lm praying for you...may your hearts desire come true in 2017.

  • Thank you Elynn 😊 We are all here for each other. I'd be lost without this site-everyone here is so lovely and understanding-and know what to say πŸ‘πŸ»

    Hope all is well with you-wishing you the very best in your journey. May it bring you happiness ❀️

    X

  • Hi girls.

    So I woke up at silly o clock and after walking my dog took the dreaded test- yeah it was a negative. πŸ‘ŽπŸ» My period isn't due in full flow till Christmas Eve -nice gift heyπŸ‘ŽπŸ» The spotting has not happened since yesterday morning. I am sure it's only a matter of time till it does. Urgh. My body never ceases to amaze me πŸ™„

    Onwards and upwards will contact the clinic and hopefully secretary will get hold of our consultant and see where I go from here. The conversation I had with the secretary was pretty positive πŸ‘πŸ»She was very nice and supportive-I have felt at times my clinic have abandoned me but yesterday I have felt the support ☺️ Going through this journey you need support . ❀️

    Thank you for support-it is so appreciated as I type I am holding back the tears with the kindness you've all shown me.

    I will update once I have spoken to my clinic

    X

  • I feel your pain. Af arrived again today. Guess I should be grateful for having a "regular" period though. I hope 2017 is your year! πŸ€πŸ€πŸ€

  • Thank you tugsgirl- im sorry the witch got you. It's so tough- we all try so hard and do all the right things-it's not fair. Yet others smoke drink and fall just like that. My sister in law smoked the whole way through her pregnancy-and my hubbys family wonder why I won't have anything to do with her. Strange that πŸ˜‚

    Haven't had any spotting since yesterday morning-sometimes I feel our bodies enjoy playing tricks on us 😱

    Waiting to hear from secretary whose going to have a word with consultant-I'm hoping he'll agree to up my dose. And that'll do the trick-need a miracle πŸ™πŸ»

    Perhaps 2017 will be kinder to us both. ❀️

    It would be awful to have no period and not be pregnant-how stressful-something I am grateful for-since clomid my cycle is regular 31/32 days.

    May your dreams come true next year. I do believe good things happen for those who wait 🌈

    Enjoy what hopefully will be your last booze Christmas -I know I will when the witch decides to turn up!

    πŸ’•

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